✩ YourSaintEli ✩

this is what i meant the other day when i said that people internalize others' shyness in such bizarre ways. when i was growing up and was really quiet i remember at least twice in elementary school and a few times in middle school someone (usually a boy) coming up to me and asking why i never spoke/never spoke to them. but the irony was, this was the first time they were speaking to me too. to this day, even though i put myself out there more, i get people telling me they thought i was mean or rude before they'd spoken to me. yet when i ask why they can never pinpoint any behavior that made them think that beyond that i hadnt talked to them. but again, they hadnt talked to me yet either. i dont know if this is just an extrovert thing or something because i never assume someones shyness has anything to do with me and id never question why someone hadn't spoken to me if i, in turn, had never spoken to them either. im obviously biased but i often feel like extroverts, even as adults, have no comprehension that other people move through the world differently than them. in contrast, while quiet people have our own issues, ive never seen or heard of one questioning why extroverts do talk to others or what their intentions are behind doing so. we just know that some people are more talkative

find a new niche of youtube videos and maybe youll feel better

I will probably get through this just like I have gotten through everything before but I need to be really stressed and scared first

*Reblogs my own post*