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My country has finally shown that no matter what fascists try to cram down our throats, we will eventually rise. Turnout rates soared, an incredible number of people voted both in and outside the country, to the extent that not even this filthy, corrupt (ex!)government managed to cheat and slither their way out of it as they always did in the past.

We were already headed home when I felt the switch, and I asked two girls passing us by: "Did we do it? Do we have the two-thirds?" And then broke down crying.

It was amazing to see young people so involved and passionate about the change, the energy in the city was simply electric. Pensioners and college students danced together on the sidewalk, pedestrians and drivers stopped the traffic to celebrate; it was really the first time I saw my people so overwhelmingly happy and single-minded.

Here's to a brighter future!

I love you Hungary, I love you Hungarians!

(Screenshots at the end)

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This is going to be a little more informal, because honestly, I don’t want to drag this out longer than I have to. I made it clear - twice - back in February that I just wanted this situation to end. Despite my efforts to stay quiet and hope it would fizzle out, the person who’s been spreading false information about me hasn’t stopped. Instead, they’ve continued nonstop using alt and burner accounts, all while accusing me of being the one who won’t let it go.

He’s been reblogging posts from his alt Tumblr accounts (some of which have thankfully stopped), clearly trying to bury or discredit the evidence that shows his harmful behavior. He’s done this almost every single day - like clockwork.

He’s also used burner accounts to DM people in the official Pathea server, spreading hurtful and completely untrue claims about me. When one account was reported and removed, another popped up almost immediately and carried on the same behavior. Now, he's taken this to Reddit, where (according to multiple people who've reached out to me) he’s messaged nearly everyone who has commented on or interacted with my posts - mere hours after I created an account to share my artwork.

It’s uncomfortable for the people who received these unsolicited messages and felt they had to tell me. It’s uncomfortable for me to have to address this again. And I imagine it’s uncomfortable for moderators who have to deal with reviewing these situations - especially when this is coming from an adult who absolutely should know better.

Despite everything, I’ve made countless efforts to stay silent, hoping the situation would eventually pass. I’ve been fully aware of what’s been happening this entire time, but I chose to stay quiet in an attempt to de-escalate and move on.

I know about your alt accounts - on Reddit, on Discord, and the anonymous messages you and/or your friends sent to the owner of the My Time Tumblr zine, clearly trying to get me removed from the project.

I have screenshots from multiple people you messaged about me. Even though you were using alt accounts, they recognized you immediately - they didn’t even need to ask me. They quickly found the links between you and your burner accounts. They’ve reported you - and they’ll keep reporting you. I’ve been forced to report you as well, because I can’t keep ignoring it when nearly every other week, someone sends me more evidence of you hiding behind a burner and obsessively trying to paint me as a terrible person.

When the Sandrock voice actors called you out, it didn’t stop you.

When you lost your moderator role on the Pathea subreddits after your behavior was exposed, it didn’t stop you.

When a document full of screenshots was posted - showing your history of harmful actions, including you doxxing people and weaponizing the attempted suicide of an artist (which you falsely blamed on me and my friends, only for that artist to publicly call your claims false) - even that didn’t stop you.

When your Tumblr burners posted falsified evidence against me, then deleted the replies calling it out and blocked anyone who showed proof - you kept going.

Even when Pathea themselves had to issue a vague statement about “ongoing tension” affecting the community - it still didn’t stop you.

At this point, I genuinely don’t know what will. You've taken this across multiple platforms, and you continue targeting me from alt accounts. I can’t express how exhausting, frustrating, and deeply hurtful it is to be subjected to this over and over again. I’ve tried so hard to let this go, even knowing you’d never apologize or admit to anything. But you refuse to stop. I don’t even know what could possibly fuel the amount of hatred it takes to go this far.

Leaking my private mental health diagnosis in a public server with hundreds of people wasn’t enough? You think deleting the conversations hides it? It doesn’t. People saved those messages. They saw what happened. They know what you said. You can try to erase it, but it’s already out there - no matter how many times you claim it’s “edited.”

To the friends who’ve defended or excused this behavior: If you genuinely care about him, please be honest with him. Let him know when it’s gone too far. Enabling this and silencing the people who’ve been harmed has only pushed him to go further. If you truly want to support him, help him get the help he needs before more people get hurt.

The only reason I haven’t named you - despite your own friend publicly outing you in an attempt to twist and dismiss my vague request to be left alone - is because I still wanted to give you a chance to stop. But at this point, I probably don’t even need to say your name. Everyone already knows what you’re doing.

So, I’m asking you one last time:

Please stop and own up to your lies.

This isn’t a call out with the intention of sending any sort of hate towards him. This is my last option in addressing him directly (since I know he’s been keeping an eye on me, or at least his friends have been and report to him) as well as letting it be known what is going on in case anyone else has received untrue messages about me. Please do not harass him or send any hate messages towards him over this. What he did/ is doing was horrible, so please do not do the same. If you receive any messages about me that resemble the ones I’ve shared below, please report them to Pathea. It helps them take action and remove these fake accounts.

dead man walking

Hi, I’ve been sort of attempting to avoid making a post about this but due to numerous concerned individuals reaching out to me and the amount of receipts that I’ve been given regarding this I have to make one last attempt to address the person who has been doing this to me for the past few months.

I know what you’re doing, and you know it’s dishonest and wrong. This needs to stop. Targeting others and involving them in your personal drama just for interacting with me is unacceptable, and the misinformation and harassment have to end.

I’m giving you the chance to take accountability and tell the truth. If I continue to hear that this behavior is still happening, I’ll have no choice but to address it directly.

I’m not interested in some self-made competition for attention and the drama - I just want to share my love for this game and community together with my friends. Please leave me alone.

For the record: I have never, and will never, send anonymous hate to anyone - especially not over being queer or creating gay art. As a queer minority myself, I stand for marginalized communities and will always support safe, inclusive spaces for everyone.

It’s incredibly unfair to your friends as well, who you have most likely been feeding false versions of the story. It’s also unfair to pull completely uninvolved individuals trying to enjoy their time in this space into this especially when you know that this is untrue- then hide behind alt accounts and your friends, which will unfairly put them in a position where they have been defending someone who has been dishonest to them.

I have specified my reasons for not naming the individuals involved in my follow-up here. In summary: naming the individuals involved would subsequently follow a DARVO campaign. Considering you've chosen to publicly vague my post while gaslighting me, Snowy, and the folks that know about this situation instead of privately reaching out to me to clear up any confusion regarding my post, I think it's safe to say we know where you stand regarding the matter.

But since you've decided to publicly implicate yourself: No, we do not think you were the one who sent Snowy the anon hate. However, since you’ve decided to make this public, I will go on record to say that this part of my post:

Was about you specifically, and that shortly after you blocked Snowy on all your socials, they received this message in their askbox:

(For those who aren't aware: Robyn went by the handle "Pebbles" on Discord when they were friends with Snowy, and this was sent sometime in late October of last year.)

Hi Harlot! Simprock fucks here! Proof as requested. Sorry it took a while, we had to collect 471 pages of it. I hope its enough though. And we ask again: please leave us alone.

I never asked to be pulled into this. When I originally messaged Sno4wy I had done so because I was saddened to see that a member of the community that I only knew in passing was being harassed and knew that there were others who had received the same treatment. I never imagined that wanting to reach out to a fellow member of the community would result in me becoming one of his targets after cutting communication off with him due to someone reaching out to me and letting me know that the story he gave me was not entirely truthful because they were concerned about my safety; and to this day I will thank them for having reached out to warn me before things got worse.

However. Despite me making requests to be left out of a situation that I now knew to be at best exaggerated and at worse falsified, I received concerning screenshots of Sno4wy and associates like Harlot and others talking about me with the intent of dragging my name through the mud because i did not want to get involved, I had “chosen the side of his abusers” in his eyes and shifted from becoming someone “vulnerable and manipulated” to a person who he was now focusing his attention on to try and spread untrue claims about me, which resulted in attempted sabotages against me and my works which in turn unfairly dragged others into this mess solely because they associated with me.

I kept quiet about this for a very long time because I believed, and still believe that a lot of the individuals who were defending or sympathizing with Sno4wy just didn’t know the full story. I naively believed all the way up until my recent request to be left alone that he would one day realize what he was doing was wrong and stop. I would have even been fine with him never apologizing or telling the truth so long as he simply stopped discussing me both publicly and privately in defamatory ways and went his own way. But after more and more people whom I had never spoken to as well as previous friends of Sno4wy reached out to me to warn me about concerning messages they received from him about me, I could no longer ignore what was happening and tried to address it, which is what led to me making my recent post requesting that he stop lying about me and dragging uninvolved parties into all of this.

Although I was disappointed to see that my request resulted in his friend immediately jumping to respond in a way that would make me look like I was “DARVO” Ing as they have often accused me of, I was unfortunately not surprised. The creators of the document had my full permission to use my screenshots and chat logs with him and I logged off so I wouldn’t have to risk seeing more people on Snowy’s side of things attacking me for finally speaking out.

Since the release of the document, I was made aware that evidence against me was fabricated (which was thankfully quickly discovered and called out), that alt accounts were created trying to “debunk” the document and try to minimize what was happening or discredit it by saying it was full of “nonsense ramblings” despite the fact it was primarily made of of screenshots from Sno4wy. These blogs have preemptively blocked me with what I believe to be the specific intent to make sure I am unable to directly respond to it properly. I became aware that a private medical diagnosis I had shared with him was outed and I do not know how many people now have this information. They have now started to argue that for some reason, 471 whole pages of evidence has been faked. But I know this claim will also be debunked and I am confident that people will see what’s going on.

My participation as a moderator in the Memories of My Time Zine on Tumblr was weaponized and I now understand that there was a one sided competition between us and the other MTaS zine, an imaginary feud that was likely created by him. I never worked on it with the intention to create some sort of contest, and I fully believe that he has acted out on his own accord and that the owner of the other zine was not aware of what he was doing, which is why I please ask that you understand I absolutely do not believe that the owner of the zine should be punished for the actions of someone who was trusted with power who had gone rogue and sent out anonymous asks. The Jewel of the Eufala has my entire support as a fellow creative project and it would be unjust to pin any blame on anyone for Sno4wy’s actions but himself.

I am grateful to the people who have read the document and realized what was going on, and to all the people who sent me kind messages and their support. Some of you were friends, some were complete strangers, and some were people who were previously friends of Sno4wy but recognized the danger that I was in and chose to notify me despite the risks. This situation had made me so stressed out to the point I was nearly hospitalized because I could not eat and the fact that a person could make me feel so weak was scary and shameful.

For the longest time I had been afraid with interacting with people outside my immediate circle, and the fear that Snowy may one day try to doxx me the same way he doxxed others is what resulted in me leaving servers I once loved and felt safe in. I had closed down commissions due to being afraid of how PayPal hands out your name with it. I was afraid of talking to new people constantly because I had to wonder if snowy had already gone out of his way to spread lies about me to them, but still chose to never discuss him despite his claims of me reaching out to artists with the intent of trying to rally against him. All I wanted was a community where I could feel safe and befriend people and for a very long time I allowed snowy to take that away from me. But not anymore.

Sno4wy, I am now asking you directly one last time. Please stop. Please leave me alone. Please stop doubling down. I hope you don’t take what I am about to say with offense, as this is something I mean with only the best intention. Please get help. I still believe that with the right help you can heal and become better, just as I have suggested to you privately. Do it not just for those around you, but also for yourself. What you have done has hurt people much more than you may realize. If you truly had the evidence you claimed you had against my friends and I, you would not be hiding behind new alt accounts the way you are now and would have shown your evidence now instead of promising it again and again and again and then never providing or becoming offended when it is requested.

I want this to be the final time I ever have to address this. All I asked was to be left alone, that was all I ever asked. This has been one long nightmare that I just want to end but one that I will not allow to taint my love for this game series or community. It is because of everyone who reached out to me to keep me safe that I want to remain and why I believe that the good outweighs everything. I refuse to let this experience ruin my excitement for future projects and my passion to create and express my love for a game series that I love.

Hi, I’ve been sort of attempting to avoid making a post about this but due to numerous concerned individuals reaching out to me and the amount of receipts that I’ve been given regarding this I have to make one last attempt to address the person who has been doing this to me for the past few months.

I know what you’re doing, and you know it’s dishonest and wrong. This needs to stop. Targeting others and involving them in your personal drama just for interacting with me is unacceptable, and the misinformation and harassment have to end.

I’m giving you the chance to take accountability and tell the truth. If I continue to hear that this behavior is still happening, I’ll have no choice but to address it directly.

I’m not interested in some self-made competition for attention and the drama - I just want to share my love for this game and community together with my friends. Please leave me alone.

For the record: I have never, and will never, send anonymous hate to anyone - especially not over being queer or creating gay art. As a queer minority myself, I stand for marginalized communities and will always support safe, inclusive spaces for everyone.

It’s incredibly unfair to your friends as well, who you have most likely been feeding false versions of the story. It’s also unfair to pull completely uninvolved individuals trying to enjoy their time in this space into this especially when you know that this is untrue- then hide behind alt accounts and your friends, which will unfairly put them in a position where they have been defending someone who has been dishonest to them.

I have specified my reasons for not naming the individuals involved in my follow-up here. In summary: naming the individuals involved would subsequently follow a DARVO campaign. Considering you've chosen to publicly vague my post while gaslighting me, Snowy, and the folks that know about this situation instead of privately reaching out to me to clear up any confusion regarding my post, I think it's safe to say we know where you stand regarding the matter.

But since you've decided to publicly implicate yourself: No, we do not think you were the one who sent Snowy the anon hate. However, since you’ve decided to make this public, I will go on record to say that this part of my post:

Was about you specifically, and that shortly after you blocked Snowy on all your socials, they received this message in their askbox:

(For those who aren't aware: Robyn went by the handle "Pebbles" on Discord when they were friends with Snowy, and this was sent sometime in late October of last year.)

Hi Harlot! Simprock fucks here! Proof as requested. Sorry it took a while, we had to collect 471 pages of it. I hope its enough though. And we ask again: please leave us alone.

Hi, I’ve been sort of attempting to avoid making a post about this but due to numerous concerned individuals reaching out to me and the amount of receipts that I’ve been given regarding this I have to make one last attempt to address the person who has been doing this to me for the past few months.

I know what you’re doing, and you know it’s dishonest and wrong. This needs to stop. Targeting others and involving them in your personal drama just for interacting with me is unacceptable, and the misinformation and harassment have to end.

I’m giving you the chance to take accountability and tell the truth. If I continue to hear that this behavior is still happening, I’ll have no choice but to address it directly.

I’m not interested in some self-made competition for attention and the drama - I just want to share my love for this game and community together with my friends. Please leave me alone.

For the record: I have never, and will never, send anonymous hate to anyone - especially not over being queer or creating gay art. As a queer minority myself, I stand for marginalized communities and will always support safe, inclusive spaces for everyone.

It’s incredibly unfair to your friends as well, who you have most likely been feeding false versions of the story. It’s also unfair to pull completely uninvolved individuals trying to enjoy their time in this space into this especially when you know that this is untrue- then hide behind alt accounts and your friends, which will unfairly put them in a position where they have been defending someone who has been dishonest to them.

I have specified my reasons for not naming the individuals involved in my follow-up here. In summary: naming the individuals involved would subsequently follow a DARVO campaign. Considering you've chosen to publicly vague my post while gaslighting me, Snowy, and the folks that know about this situation instead of privately reaching out to me to clear up any confusion regarding my post, I think it's safe to say we know where you stand regarding the matter.

But since you've decided to publicly implicate yourself: No, we do not think you were the one who sent Snowy the anon hate. However, since you’ve decided to make this public, I will go on record to say that this part of my post:

Was about you specifically, and that shortly after you blocked Snowy on all your socials, they received this message in their askbox:

(For those who aren't aware: Robyn went by the handle "Pebbles" on Discord when they were friends with Snowy, and this was sent sometime in late October of last year.)

Hi Harlot! Simprock fucks here! Proof as requested. Sorry it took a while, we had to collect 471 pages of it. I hope its enough though. And we ask again: please leave us alone.

Didn’t want to jump in this but here we fucking go: First to be fucking clear, and which no one, might I add. came to me directly to ask, all the the Logan/anon drama was NOT the reason I did why I did what I did. It didn’t help the situation, but it wasn’t the sole reason. I had so much IRL issues going on at the time, and I realize the petty stuff with the anon hate made it seem like it was the only reason but I barely thought about it while I was doing the thing. I have half the mind to bill a certain party the rest of my medical debt but hey, we’re gonna move on.

I cut myself off from fan servers and from most people in the community due to being anxious all the time, thus being alone since late 2023. If I was talking to anyone, it would be purely about the game or art stuff. Snowy & Goons, how DARE you use my situation to your benefit, and any of the posts I’ve made. You cannot outright accuse someone else of my suicide attempt without any concrete evidence. That’s a damn serious accusation. All we have are petty Tumblr anon messages. And ooo guess what, not every single Logan fan is gathered at Simprock, there are plenty of other individuals within the community, outside of fan servers. Who’s to say that your goons aren’t the ones posing as the anons for them to be framed? Idk but you can’t keep talking out of your ass. My harassment started roughly around 2020/21, I can’t even remember who said what at the time and who’s to say the same people are even around anymore. Should I have collected evidence? Seeing how it all came to this, yeah I definitely should have. I don’t have evidence, but most importantly NEITHER DO YOU. Which applies to many things for you.

Simprock was the last server I had joined. During the brief time I was there, was treated with nothing but kindness and respect. I admit, I do still have a sort of distrust with them, for other reasons, but with this it’s hard not to be on their side( and with apparent evidence) . Actually in fact, it was when Snowy had also joined Simprock, I bolted out of there shortly. I wasn’t there long enough to get to know anyone but I saw your name and my skin immediately crawled. We never talked directly but I first saw you in the bootleg my time server (late 2022-mide2023) the vibes were immediately off. I’m not of fan of Logan either but you were constantly belittling them, not cool. To think you’ve escalated this far…baffling.

Back to using my posts to your benefit, the zine post. How the fuck did you immediately accuse them again when I said I wasn’t joining either zines. Again I couldn’t even guess who the anons were but hey, could be your goons posing again. Just because a person liked it immediately meant it was an attack against you? Dude. Reaching aren’t we.

Some days I take a step back, and think. There were several different ways to have handled my harassment, and I was thinking one of those ways was the one you’re taking Snowy, and I can’t begin to imagine it, not even a little. Why? Because this is fucking insane behavior. I wouldn’t have begun to do something like this good gracious. If I made anyone uncomfortable last year anytime after my attempt or during all the hate anon messages, I genuinely didn’t mean to and I apologize. I appreciate more than anything that the lot of you gathered to help me during and afterwards. I’ll always be thankful.

I’m going to cut myself off here before I get pissed again, but one more thing.

Hi, I’ve been sort of attempting to avoid making a post about this but due to numerous concerned individuals reaching out to me and the amount of receipts that I’ve been given regarding this I have to make one last attempt to address the person who has been doing this to me for the past few months.

I know what you’re doing, and you know it’s dishonest and wrong. This needs to stop. Targeting others and involving them in your personal drama just for interacting with me is unacceptable, and the misinformation and harassment have to end.

I’m giving you the chance to take accountability and tell the truth. If I continue to hear that this behavior is still happening, I’ll have no choice but to address it directly.

I’m not interested in some self-made competition for attention and the drama - I just want to share my love for this game and community together with my friends. Please leave me alone.

For the record: I have never, and will never, send anonymous hate to anyone - especially not over being queer or creating gay art. As a queer minority myself, I stand for marginalized communities and will always support safe, inclusive spaces for everyone.

It’s incredibly unfair to your friends as well, who you have most likely been feeding false versions of the story. It’s also unfair to pull completely uninvolved individuals trying to enjoy their time in this space into this especially when you know that this is untrue- then hide behind alt accounts and your friends, which will unfairly put them in a position where they have been defending someone who has been dishonest to them.

I have specified my reasons for not naming the individuals involved in my follow-up here. In summary: naming the individuals involved would subsequently follow a DARVO campaign. Considering you've chosen to publicly vague my post while gaslighting me, Snowy, and the folks that know about this situation instead of privately reaching out to me to clear up any confusion regarding my post, I think it's safe to say we know where you stand regarding the matter.

But since you've decided to publicly implicate yourself: No, we do not think you were the one who sent Snowy the anon hate. However, since you’ve decided to make this public, I will go on record to say that this part of my post:

Was about you specifically, and that shortly after you blocked Snowy on all your socials, they received this message in their askbox:

(For those who aren't aware: Robyn went by the handle "Pebbles" on Discord when they were friends with Snowy, and this was sent sometime in late October of last year.)

Hi Harlot! Simprock fucks here! Proof as requested. Sorry it took a while, we had to collect 471 pages of it. I hope its enough though. And we ask again: please leave us alone.

SAG AFTRA news update:

"SAG-AFTRA Members Who Work on Video Games Go on Strike July 25th A.I. Protections Remain the Sticking Point SAG-AFTRA National Executive Director & Chief Negotiator Duncan Crabtree-Ireland, acting under the authority delegated by the SAG-AFTRA National Board, and with the unanimous advice and counsel of the Interactive Media Agreement Negotiating Committee, called a strike of the Interactive Media Agreement, effective July 26 at 12:01 a.m. Today’s vote to strike comes after more than a year and a half of negotiations without a deal. The convenience bargaining group with whom SAG-AFTRA is negotiating includes Activision Productions Inc., Blindlight LLC, Disney Character Voices Inc., Electronic Arts Productions Inc., Formosa Interactive LLC, Insomniac Games Inc., Llama Productions LLC, Take 2 Productions Inc., VoiceWorks Productions Inc., and WB Games Inc. Any game looking to employ SAG-AFTRA talent to perform covered work must sign on to the new Tiered-Budget Independent Interactive Media Agreement, the Interim Interactive Media Agreement or the Interim Interactive Localization Agreement. These agreements offer critical A.I. protections for members. Negotiations began in October 2022 and on Sept. 24, 2023, SAG-AFTRA members approved a video game strike authorization with a 98.32% yes vote. Although agreements have been reached on many issues important to SAG-AFTRA members, the employers refuse to plainly affirm, in clear and enforceable language, that they will protect all performers covered by this contract in their A.I. language. “We’re not going to consent to a contract that allows companies to abuse A.I. to the detriment of our members. Enough is enough. When these companies get serious about offering an agreement our members can live — and work — with, we will be here, ready to negotiate,” stated SAG-AFTRA President Fran Drescher.   “The video game industry generates billions of dollars in profit annually. The driving force behind that success is the creative people who design and create those games. That includes the SAG-AFTRA members who bring memorable and beloved game characters to life, and they deserve and demand the same fundamental protections as performers in film, television, streaming, and music: fair compensation and the right of informed consent for the A.I. use of their faces, voices, and bodies. Frankly, it’s stunning that these video game studios haven’t learned anything from the lessons of last year - that our members can and will stand up and demand fair and equitable treatment with respect to A.I., and the public supports us in that,” said Crabtree-Ireland. “Eighteen months of negotiations have shown us that our employers are not interested in fair, reasonable A.I. protections, but rather flagrant exploitation. We refuse this paradigm – we will not leave any of our members behind, nor will we wait for sufficient protection any longer. We look forward to collaborating with teams on our Interim and Independent contracts, which provide A.I. transparency, consent and compensation to all performers, and to continuing to negotiate in good faith with this bargaining group when they are ready to join us in the world we all deserve." said Interactive Media Agreement Negotiating Committee Chair Sarah Elmaleh.  For more information and to search whether a video game is struck, please visit sagaftra.org/videogamestrike."

Erika: "Solidarity. We’ll be fulfilling contracts at SDCC but afterwards WE HOLD THE LINE. Labor is entitled to all it creates! ✊🏼🎮" [source] Text in the image reads "What do we do about San Diego Comic-Con? Given the close proximity of the calling of the strike with San Diego Comic-Con ("SDCC"), the strike rules relating to promotion and publicity services do not apply to promotion and publicity services provided at SDCC 2024".

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