I swear, this time I mean it.

Hello new goal: see @taylorswift perform at SNL on October 5th.

Taylor, you done good with this one.

NOT TO FREAK OUT BUT

Someone asked me today why I was so “obsessed” with Taylor as a human but also her music and I guess when it comes down to it, the whole reason I first started listening to her music was because I was young and had all these emotions I couldn’t process and didn’t understand...until I heard them in her songs. Her music helped me to make sense of my confusing adolescence- the pain that someone caused me, the heartbreak I felt for someone that never loved me, those hopelessly romantic moments....all of them....she wrote about in her music. And now when I listen to her songs, I have people in mind for each one. To me, Tell Me Why is about a boy who broke up with me on Valentine’s Day. I’d Lie is about a boy I was crushing on as my friends and he sat around a fire pit during a summer night before my sophomore year of high school. I Knew You Were Trouble is about a recent person in my life....and so on and so on.

Telling my friend how used I feel after this awful weekend with this awful guy....and I described it as “Cold As You on repeat.”