Like a bucket of ice cold water it downed on him, it wasnât just a fun, thrilling thing but rather a matter involving very real feelings on both sides. Jaime looked down, nodded accordingly given he was mostly dancing around the other manâs terms. âYou didnât make me gay, though. I donât think I ever was fully straight to begin withâ He chuckled, perhaps not the point he had to make in the mix of all of it. âThereâs always college, I kissed a couple of guys but yeah, you were my first.â He confessed with a little shy blush on his cheeks, not the thing he liked to admit as he got close to his thirties.
Jaime looked up at the shirtless man, he couldnât really bear to stay away from him. What had happened the night before had meant something to him, he couldnât just pretend it never happened. âYou have?â The thought brought a smile to his face, with everything going on, he hadnât stopped to think of how it had been for him before last night. âSounds like you had a little crush on meâ His body swung softly from side to side, not sure how he was getting flustered now and not that moment the previous night when he literally had Rafael inside of him.
âI donât know what weâre supposed to do, I wasnât hoping you would eitherâ He paused, his hands took that of Rafaâs before lifting it up to his face. âWe go wherever you wanna goâ He offered when pressing a kiss on the back of his hand, then another one on his fingers. Jaime nuzzled against the manâs palm and smiled when looking at him. âLast night felt like magicâ If he would have to start a lie for everyone else, he had to have an outlet to speak his truth, as inconvenient as that might be. âWhat if I said⌠â He brought himself closer, his hand reached for the manâs chest as he toyed with his finger around one of Rafaelâs nipples. âWhat if I said I donât want the magic to stop?â He wasnât confident enough to look at him in the eye, out of fear of rejection but he made himself do it. And it was too late, he knew then he wanted him, he wanted that man so bad.
Eyes threatened to roll playfully as Jaime admitted that Rafael didn't make him gay, when he knew full and well that that wasn't how sexuality worked - his parents and his family, on the other hand, wouldn't, and they'd see Rafael as a sexual deviant who turned his sister's husband gay to steal him away. And while Rafael wasn't particularly close to his family, he wasn't sure if he could handle them cutting him off completely - because there were some decent people in there, just drowned out by the ones with archaic ideals.
Still, eyes simply watched as Jaime took his hands and began to kiss around them, it being obvious that Jaime was trying to make him feel better - which, in reality, should've been the opposite. Jaime was the one that was the adulterer now, not Rafael, and Rafael should be doing everything in his power to make Jaime feel as though he was a decent human being.
But then Jaime's fingers were tracing his nipples, and he could feel his cock surge to life, memories of the night before coming back. "What I want is you," Rafael finally whispered, looking over his shoulder so that his nose was very nearly brushing against Jaime's as a hand moved to rest on Jaime's thigh. "I want you in whatever capacity you'd have me. If you still want to be married to my sister and fool around with me, I can handle it - it would suck, not having you as mine completely, but I'd understand... I just want you."
And without saying anything else, Rafael shifted his head so that his lips brushed Jaime's in a sweet, sensual kiss.