Aperture

Whatever God's written for me is what I want. Make them clear for me, for him too YRA. I want no resentment nor hate in my heart of him. I loved him. I love him. Make us live a good fulfilling life for You, with or without each other. I have nothing else to pray for at this point. That's all, God. What are you teaching us?

Maybe I should move on too. Maybe this is a closed door that I didn't want to accept. By the end of it, we were both beyond exhausted. I was.

I don't know what to pray for anymore. I prayed Allah fix our relationship and every time it's fixed, it crashes again and again. So, I'm not praying for it this time and you seemed to want to not look back at all. So, I just pray whatever he's written for me though deep down I still hoped that our relationship is fixed. How does one promise something about 7 years down the line? Anything can happen.

But, if we're meant to be one day, I still pray for that, I pray that I have no doubts in choosing you and likewise, you choosing me. and Allah makes us good for each other. I want that.

Wherever you are, whatever you do, I'll always pray the best for you. I wish you love and happiness in all aspects of your life even if it means I'm not in it. You're always in my prayers where my love for you is pure. It lives on even when we're not together. I surrender even if it's the hardest thing I have ever had to do.