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I’m at work so the most I can do is spill a little tea.

Below the cut please:

Below the cut.... try not to SCREAM!!!

At last, Yashiro has surrendered to his feelings. If we recall, he has often been guarded against them, but now the rain falls upon him and washes everything away: his fears, his mistakes, and that self-destructive mindset that has prevented him from feeling worthy of being loved. Doumeki, with the help of his entire circle—Amou, Kamiya, Nanahara, even Kageyama—has achieved what we thought impossible: that Yashiro, for the first time, follows his heart and is happy. From my perspective, it doesn't matter if this happiness is brief, as long as he has found a little peace. I am truly happy for him and for my beloved Doumeki, who deserves this and more.

Hoy quiero hablar de manera sencilla, sin análisis psicológicos o palabras técnicas, quiero hablar desde el amor que le tengo a la obra, al autor y sus personajes. De mis sentimientos desordenados y mis pensamientos.

Alerta, hay spoilers, muchos spoilers y diálogos parafraseados, no son exactos.

Doumeki confesó sus sentimientos y se fué, como dije en el post anterior, le cedió el control a Yashiro de manera consciente o subconsciente. Sin esperar nada más a cambio. Fue honestidad hecha carne y despedida hecha beso. Ya la decisión quedaba en manos de Yashiro y ya Doumeki no iba a perseguirlo más.

Luego tuvimos el capítulo 65, realmente me afectó. Doumeki se mantuvo firme en sus sentimientos. Kamiya había revelado absolutamente todo lo que Doumeki había ocultado sobre si mismo. Tsunakawa tenía el corazón partido y se sentía traicionado, Muraji estaba indignado. Doumeki falló, no se disculpo y de paso dijo que su lealtad estaba con Yashiro, él es su razón para vivir. A consecuencia de su enorme honestidad, un castigo desmedido fue puesto en marcha, sin siquiera haber compartido una copa. Nuevamente perdió su lugar donde vivir. El capítulo 65 me dejó tan consternada que intente no hablar de él en dos meses.

Y ahora, llega el 66.

Me impresionó, como siempre, el rango de expresiones y perspectivas físicas que nos regala Sensei. Una dibujante realmente talentosa que a través de sus trazos, nos transmite muchas emociones.

El capítulo comienza con Amou y Tsunakawa. Un hombre decepcionado y otro preocupado. Una conversación inquietante.

Nos trasladamos a la oficina de Yashiro donde él se ve visiblemente agitado y malhumorado, tiene ojeras y está cansado. Pregunta si encontraron a Kai, nada. Nanahara lo interpela y recibe una respuesta violenta. Yashiro está intranquilo, grita, se desespera, es la primera vez que lo vemos sin un plan, se siente con las manos atadas. Sabe que Doumeki recibirá el peor de los castigos y se esconde tras los lineamientos de la Yakuza, no puede ayudar a Doumeki. Pero Nanahara no se queda callado y le habla de aquella conversación en la terraza del hospital. De las palabras de Doumeki y de la actitud de Yashiro, en eso, Amou interrumpe. Luego pasamos a la escena en un café. Amou habla del pasado, después de todo, él conoce a ese Yashiro de 19 años descarrilado, lo ha visto en todas sus facetas. Se revelan cosas de Amou y una frase que me tortura: Amou dice que Misumi ve a Yashiro como un hijo pero Yashiro no ve a Misumi como un padre, y dice: No te acuestas con tus hijos. Si bien Misumi salvó a Yashiro y saben que yo siempre he estado de acuerdo con sus métodos, a Yashiro le duele el corazón y le pesa desde hace 20 años. Esto me da un cambio de perspectiva y si bien antes apoyaban que se quedarán en la Yakuza, ahora no lo hago. Me gustaría que ambos salieran de allí, me encantaría que Yashiro fuera libre de la Yakuza, al igual que Doumeki.

Volviendo al capítulo. Amou interpela a a Yashiro y le dice: echaste a Doumeki hace cuatro años por su bien o por el tuyo? Yashiro está impactado. Amou lo conoce mejor que nadie y no puede responderle, ambos saben la respuesta. Sin tocar su café recibe una llamada.

Cambiamos a la calle, Yashiro camina bajo la lluvia, sumido en sus pensamientos cuando es interceptado por Kamiya. Este no tiene pelos en la lengua ni adorna las palabras y enfrenta a Yashiro con la realidad, parafraseando le dice algo como: debes valer mucho para que un hombre como Doumeki eche su vida por la borda por protegerte.

Y para Yashiro que tiene una muy baja autoestima, recibir esas palabras de alguien que no conoce su pasado, es realmente duro. Yashiro se limita a escuchar y la frustración de Kamiya la descarga lazandole una llave de motel y un reto, dejando en sus manos la salvación de Doumeki. Luego se aleja.

Vemos la lluvia, la llave y luego la llave desaparece, el siguiente panel es de mis favoritos. Yashiro sostiene algo en su mano izquierda y mira al cielo impregnado de lluvia y gris.

Ahora cambiamos de escena. Doumeki está solo, con el arma en su mano, tocan el timbre. Cuando abre, Yashiro empapado de pies a cabeza lo besa, con una ternura y una pasión que el lector puede sentir en su propia piel. Doumeki permanece de pie sin responder solamente recibiendo, con los ojos abiertos, Yashiro lo empuja e ingresa en la habitación. Sus rostros se separan, la saliva une sus labios, la lengua de Yashiro está visible y luego se besan con una pasión exquisita. Y el capítulo finaliza.

Decir que el capítulo me gustó es quedarse corto, este capitulo es legendario. Después de tantos años, Yashiro ya no hace algo para los demás, no se sacrifica por el bien de los demás, no es una herramienta, un cuerpo vacío, una moneda de cambio. Se convirtió en un ser humano con decisiones y escucho su propio corazón. Me encantó que sin premeditarlo, tres personas se juntaron para sacudir todos los cimientos de Yashiro, ellos tres ya saben de los sentimientos mutuos que existen entre ambos y los tres aprecian tanto a Doumeki que no pudieron soportar verlo perdido y ponen la confianza y la responsabilidad de la salvación en manos de Yashiro.

Yashiro tomo su decisión, una propia, egoísta y dejando a todos atrás, bueno no a todos. Lazos de copas, grupos, lealtades, Misumi, todo lo puso por encima de Doumeki. Y que mayor felicidad para Doumeki que siempre ha sido el abandonado, ver a Yashiro allí, con una respuesta clara. Porque después de semejante confesión, ver al hombre de sus sueños parado en la puerta, uniendo frenéticamente sus labios con los suyos, es una maravillosa respuesta.

No creo que Yashiro haga lo mismo que hace cuatro años, creo que se siente responsable por sus acciones y cree ser el culpable de que Doumeki este así. Pienso que tomara responsabilidad y se unirá a Doumeki para resolver todo este embrollo, también creo que juntos son una fuerza poderosa, peligrosa e imparable. Y tengo fé, sobre todo tengo fé en Yoneda Sensei y en que ambos saldrán parados de la mejor manera de esto.

Pese a ser un capítulo para celebrar también es realmente triste, hay heridas en el corazón que no sanan fácilmente y veo a un Yashiro profundamente herido, es consciente de todo el daño que le hizo a Doumeki y creo que su desesperación radica en eso. Le hizo daño a la persona que más ha amado y a la persona que más lo ha amado a él. Yashiro no se siente merecedor de afecto pero al final tiene un hombre tan valiosos dando el todo por el todo por él. Eso no es fácil de asumir para alguien como Yashiro. Puedo sentir su dolor, su arrepentimiento y su desesperación y rompe el corazón.

Yoneda Sensei es increíble. Supera nuestras más altas expectativas. Estaré esperando el próximo capítulo con mucha ilusión.

The opening pages are the conversation between Amou and Tsunakawa that was previewed officially.

Tsunakawa reminds Amou:

"You said that guy has nowhere to go back to, right?"

Amou apologizes.

Tsunakawa responds sarcastically:

 "Funny. Even the guy himself isn't apologizing."

Amou says he had hoped that during the past four years Doumeki would learn things like obligation and gratitude.

Tsunakawa replies:

 "Maybe he'll understand from here on."

Then Tsunakawa says:

 "Not that I'm bragging, but I've never devoted myself to another person. I can't understand it, and I don't want to."

Amou answers:

 "That probably has something to do with your upbringing."

Tsunakawa:

"But you understand it, don't you? That's why you brought him here."

A flashback panel shows a young Amou looking slightly embarrassed while Misumi rests a hand on his head.

Amou reveals that bringing Doumeki to Tsunakawa was a personal favor he asked of him, and Tsunakawa only accepted it because they were old acquaintances.

As Amou leaves, he tells Tsunakawa:

 "You can count it as a debt I owe you."

But once in the car he thinks:

 "He's absolutely going to make me pay him back later."

Then they arrive at their destination.

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Yashiro and Nanahara

Back at the office.

Yashiro returns visibly irritated.

Nanahara approaches him.

While covering part of his face with one hand, Yashiro complains that they still haven't found Kai's hideout.

Nanahara asks:

"Were you maybe going to see Doumeki?"

Yashiro immediately shoots him a sharp look, throws an ashtray at his head, and snaps:

"Don't stick your nose into this."

Nanahara pushes back.

He says:

Ever since Doumeki appeared, Yashiro has been acting strange.

Maybe Doumeki said something to him.

He's not stupid; he can put things together.

He was the last person who spoke to Doumeki four years ago.

Then Nanahara reveals:

"Back then, he said that if he wasn't in this world anymore, he'd no longer have any connection to you."

At first Nanahara thought Doumeki had simply changed after joining the Sakura family.

But now he realizes:

"That wasn't it. It was because of that, wasn't it?"

Yashiro tries to brush it off:

"Who knows? It has nothing to do with me."

Nanahara continues:

"Then why are you so miserable?"

Yashiro:

"I'm just tired. What, are you trying to tell me what to do now?"

Nanahara says he isn't.

He only thinks that maybe Doumeki no longer has anywhere he belongs.

Maybe someone should help him.

Yashiro cuts him off:

"Nobody can help him."

Then Yashiro says:

"Ignoring Tsunakawa's pride, pretending I forgot him, throwing him away just so he could stay in the same world as me... how is that any different from obsession?"

At that moment,

Amou appears.

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Amou and Yashiro

The two talk at a café.

The dialogue isn't shown, but Amou apparently explains how Doumeki came to be under Tsunakawa's care.

Yashiro says he understands now, though he's genuinely surprised.

Then he asks Amou:

"Why did you go so far as to help Doumeki behind Misumi's back?"

Amou begins talking about his relationship with Misumi.

He explains:

Misumi married Amou's mother.

They were never legally adopted.

Misumi offered to pay his living expenses and tuition, but Amou refused and graduated university through his own efforts.

It was at university that he met Tsunakawa.

Amou says he always admired Misumi.

Even though he understood why Misumi never adopted him, he still wanted to become family.

He wanted to exist in the same world as him.

So instead of becoming a yakuza, he became Misumi's secretary. (After Misumi finally gave in.)

Amou says:

"I wanted to be someone like a son to him... the way you are."

Yashiro immediately replies:

"People don't sleep with their sons."

Then Amou asks the crucial question:

"Four years ago, when you abandoned Doumeki... was it for his sake? Or for your own?"

Yashiro freezes in shock.

Seeing his reaction, Amou stands up and leaves.

Beside Yashiro's seat, rain has begun to strike the window.

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Yashiro gets a phone call.

Someone asks:

"Where are you right now?"

Heavy rain is falling.

Yashiro walks through it without an umbrella.

A car suddenly stops beside him.

Then, 

"Don't move. Do you know how long I've been looking for you?"

It's Kamiya.

Kamiya says:

"I don't understand what's so great about you."

"That stubborn bastard is completely wrapped around your finger. Either you're incredible in bed, or you're unbelievably compatible."

"Either way, only a weirdo would go this far."

Yashiro keeps walking.

Kamiya continues:

"You must really be worth enough to throw a man's whole life into chaos."

Still no reaction.

Finally Kamiya clicks his tongue.

"Say something, damn it. You're disgusting."

Then he throws a hotel key at Yashiro's back.

Yashiro stops and glances over his shoulder.

Kamiya says:

"'His reason for living'... that's what you are."

"Aren't you embarrassed?"

Then:

"The night after tomorrow, Kai gets killed. After serving prison time for it, he'll be expelled from the organization."

"If he only comes to his senses when he's an old man, he'll be completely screwed."

Then Kamiya drives away.

Yashiro stands there.

The hotel key lies on the wet ground.

He closes his eyes and looks up at the rainy sky.

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The Hotel

The scene shifts.

Doumeki is in the hotel room handling his gun.

The doorbell rings.

He opens the door.

Standing there is Yashiro, soaked by the rain.

Doumeki is stunned.

Without saying a word, Yashiro places a hand against his face and leans in himself.

Then... 

He kisses him (❗❗❗❗❗) 

Doumeki's eyes remain open in shock.

Yashiro closes his eyes and kisses him desperately, completely absorbed in it.

They move inside the room.

Their lips part once.

They stare at each other.

Then, 

Doumeki firmly wraps his arms around Yashiro.

Yashiro loops both arms around Doumeki's neck.

And they kiss again.

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He touches Doumeki's face.

He closes the distance.

He kisses him first.

That's huge for a person who has spent years running away.

This is the first thing he has initiated with Doumeki since their reunion.

After spending years rationalizing, avoiding, denying, and running, his first genuine act is not verbal.

Spoilers Incoming…

Some have pointed out the possibility of the death of either Yashiro or Doumeki, and it really scared me.I know that not every story needs to have a happy ending, I'm a sucker for tragic endings usually, but for this series I really need it to end well.

It doesn't need to be a sunshine and rainbows type of ending but I need both of them to be alive at the end of the story at all costs.

Yoneda is absolutely unstoppable. We already have the new previews for the latest Saezuru chapter, which is drawing closer and closer to the climax of this final arc. This time, there are two specific details that caught my attention that I just couldn't leave unaddressed.

The Parallelism of the Snow

First of all, the cover image shows Doumeki and Yashiro under a snowfall—a clear parallel to the very beginning of Doumeki’s story within the Sakuraika group. It is snowing in the exact same way it did the day Amou handed him over to Tsunakawa. It seems this crucial part of the story, which began on a snowy day, is coming full circle and closing under the exact same weather.

Two Sides of the Same Coin

This brings me to the second preview image: Amou requests a meeting with Tsuna to apologize. While the surface-level reasons are clear, there is a much deeper history between these two characters.

Amou and Tsunakawa were university classmates, meaning they have known each other for many years. In the Saezuru universe, they represent two sides of the same coin:

Tsunakawa, on one hand, is a successor by inheritance.

Amou, on the other, is Misumi’s illegitimate son, who became a boss through pure meritocracy and power.

Consequently, even though they have only met a handful of times throughout the story, they show an incredibly close bond through the sheer weight of the favors they dare to ask of and grant each other.

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Loyalty and Favors Within the Yakuza

Back in chapter 30, Amou asks Tsunakawa to talk to the other bosses so they won't accept Hirata into any Sakuraika subgroups, and Tsunakawa agrees. Their conversation is deeply fascinating because Tsunakawa questions whether it wouldn't be easier to just put out a formal notice that Hirata is exiled, ensuring no one takes him in. That’s when Tsunakawa talks about loyalty and drops a heavy line: "A man without a group is dead." Pushing someone to those extremes is no small decision.

Against all odds, many years later, Amou turns to Tsuna for help once again—this time to take in Doumeki. Going completely against his own convictions of not accepting the "leftovers" of other clans, Tsunakawa complies. This is exactly why Amou goes to apologize to him: he knows perfectly well that Tsunakawa made a massive exception solely out of that surreal friendship they share.

The Illusion of Freedom

Furthermore, I love how Yoneda always positions them in spaces that are simultaneously vast yet enclosed: golf courses and fishing ponds. These are artificial, man-made environments that, despite seeming immense, are completely fenced in. It captures the very essence of Saezuru: even if you feel free, the yakuza remains your prison. Perhaps that’s why they look for these specific settings for their private meetings; it grants them a subtle illusion of freedom that, due to the realities of the mafia world, can never truly be real.

The cover 😭😭♥️

It says "The past and these feelings keep chasing us" On the cover.

The Saezuru comic account also only posted the cover. Not a new page, and said "Don't miss chapter 66, look forward to it!!"

I think one of the things that pains me the most about both Yashiro's and Doumeki's characters is that neither of them values their life as an individual. There is this deep sense of despair they both carry, and there are many instances where the author keeps highlighting it. Here, in chapter 65 leaks, we see how Doumeki yet again claims that Yashiro was his only reason to live. Is it a good thing? Of course not.

If you would be so kind to translate this for the masses? I would appreciate it.

Woke up to this and was extremely happy 🥳

Everyone thank Kayura for sharing. 💜

My Ghost Is Reporting…

After the page from the second preview where doumeki collapses while trying to stand up

• Doumeki: "…S-sorry…"

• Yashiro: "It's fine. Don’t talk."

• Saying that, Yashiro puts Doumeki's arm around his shoulder and carries him to the bed

• Doumeki grabs Yashiro’s arm and says, "Don't go…" and then loses consciousness

• Yashiro prepares a towel for Doumeki's forehead and some water, and stays to nurse him

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• Doumeki wakes up

• When he sits up, he sees Yashiro sleeping while seated against the wall

• Doumeki moves closer, notices the bucket of water nearby, and understands what happened.

• As he looks at Yashiro’s sleeping face, he recalls Kageyama's words and reaches out-

• but just then, his phone rings.

• The ringtone wakes Yashiro.

• Tsunakawa: "It's me."

• Doumeki: "…Yes."

• Tsunakawa: "Come to the main house. Now."

• Doumeki: "Understood."

• Yashiro looks up at Doumeki, who has lowered his gaze

• Yashiro asks if it was Tsunakawa calling

• Doumeki asks what Yashiro had originally come for

• Yashiro dodges the question

"What was it again?"

• He pretends he’s forgotten

• Yashiro then asks whether it was really okay to send the club mama who people think Doumeki is involved with home.

• Doumeki: "When did I ever say I was dating her?"

• Yashiro: "…You're not?"

• Doumeki’s wound starts to hurt, so he sits down and explains

 • The club mama is his childhood friend

• He was her tattoo practice model

• She was saving money at the club so she could become independent as a tattoo artist

• Yashiro: "I… see."

• Doumeki: "Would it have been more convenient if we were dating?"

• Yashiro: "…What do you mean by that?"

• Doumeki: "I wondered if that would make you feel more at ease."

• Yashiro: "At ease…? What are you talking about?"

• Doumeki: "Do you really not understand?"

• Yashiro: "It doesn’t matter to me either way. I don’t care who you’re dating as long as I can have sex, It doesn’t even have to be you"

• Doumeki: "I-"

(the scene shown in the first official preview.)

• Doumeki: "What if I told you that… I still have feelings for you?"

• Doumeki: "Do you want to know how I feel?"

"If I said I still love you, if you knew I’m still chasing after you"

• Doumeki: "Even so, do you still want to hear it from my own mouth?"

"Do you truly believe I could ever love anyone other than you?" (😭😭♥️) 

• They look at each other at the same eye level.

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Doumeki’s past

"Because you were there, I chose to live in this world."

"It didn’t matter which organization it was."

"I didn’t care if people thought I was disloyal or a terrible person."

"I decided I just wanted to exist in the same world as you any way I could."

"I wanted to become a man who could stand beside you."

"I didn’t care how many years it took."

"But I met you sooner than I expected, and I became greedy. I got jealous."

"I thought I had let those feelings go-" "but I couldn’t go against my own heart."

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Back to the present

• Doumeki reaches out and touches Yashiro’s right cheek

• Doumeki: "Can you not see?"

• Yashiro: "…Why?"

• Doumeki: "Is it a lingering effect from back then?"

• Yashiro: "It's nothing serious."

• Doumeki: "Is it because of me?"

• Yashiro: "No."

• Yashiro grabs Doumeki’s wrist.

• Doumeki: "Even if it isn't…"

• Yashiro: "You’re overthinking it."

• Doumeki: "…Even so, to me, you are kind, strong, and beautiful."

• Yashiro: "…I-"

• Yashiro: "All this time, you’ve been making me listen to this"

"what kind of feelings did you expect me to hear it with…?"

• Doumeki leans in and kisses him.

• They part.

• Yashiro opens his eyes, stunned

• Doumeki stands up

• Yashiro: "You… why… why say it now?"

 "You hid it all this time"

 "why now?"

• Doumeki looks down at him silently,

• He takes his jacket and leaves

• Doumeki’s face turns serious

• Yashiro stares at the door.

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The cover is revealed and it’s time to get ready for the pain!

The spoilers should be out soon, and we are standing on the edge of a very steep cliff!

Will Yashiro save Doumeki?

Will Doumeki refuse to carry out Tsunakawa’s orders?

Will Yashiro ask Misumi to step in?

Will Yashiro get to Kai before Tsunakawa?

Are we at the end of the volume and set for 6 months of speculation and suffering????

12 more days!!!