hi :)

12 hits that i cannot forget, said you knew it wasn't my mistake. "for family's sake, for family's sake", a child you ruined entirely for a pile of snakes. i stand so numb, but fearless, amidst oblivious brakes, if i don't cross the road, what difference would it make? threw away my childhood, poisoned my adolescence, a kid shouldn't have known that, give me back my innocence. just starving, nosebleeds, and a constant headache, these days ive been dreaming about not being awake. two pairs of eyes you created but never understand,

your gifted child will attain this prize of freedom too someday.

how little by little, the world's eating me away,

you wouldn't notice but the stars in my eyes are dying.

and i don't think this time, i wish to survive.

i hope i'll be granted peace then, may you no longer fail,

i have long forgotten the scent of your embrace.

these snow-storms have always been cold as your face.

only thing warm about this damned blood of mine, is it's taste.

so could you rock me like you did,

once when i was a kid?

everybody's so cruel, at times i can't breathe,

now i really just want to go to sleep.

for the longest time i have been tired,

i don't even have no strength left to weep.

my flawed moon, my rotting flower.

cradle me back to the dreams i can no longer see.

too bad, you brought life to your rage and agony.

if there's something like another life,

have me again, birth me with love, this time.

the dark we were put through,

only fades when i bleed.

i promise, in another world,

i'll be the child you deserved, you need.

now, sing a lullaby, cause you never did,

im so tired now, please put me to sleep.

#wtf #mother #generationaltrauma