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My experience with Beaplays/Basicallybea
Hi, my name is Logan, also known as gulagan or galaxies18. For most of you that don’t know I was Bea’s best friend before she moved to mainly creating Roblox content. First off I want to say that Bea and I NEVER dated. I’m going to talk about the friendship I had with Bea. (I deleted all of my “gulagan/galaxies18” accounts as I thought I would never interact with the communities I was involved with years ago.)
I joined her Minecraft Discord server on February 18, 2019. I had actually just turned 16 on that day. She was 20 when I joined. I joined because I was a viewer and I wanted to participate in some of the games she hosted for her community. We got close, and I joined her friend group. I never thought that our age difference was weird. Both of us liked playing games with each other and she was a content creator I enjoyed watching. Throughout the time we knew each other, she helped me make a channel so I could start making gaming content. She was always very very helpful with everything, and she would drop anything to help me. I felt really lucky that she would take time out of her day to help me. She even edited and made thumbnails for me 80% of the time.
Our friend group got closer and closer, and we would stay up really late and fall asleep in calls together for a couple of months. I eventually stopped doing that, honestly, just because I wanted to watch TV and be left alone for a while because I would spend 24/7 on Discord, usually talking to her. I thought nothing of it and didn’t think any of it was weird because all of us would just chat until we fell asleep.
She told me that she likes me more than a friend within only a few months of us knowing each other. I was still 16.
I was confused as to why she was telling me that, as she is the first person I told that I was gay. I told her no and that I didn’t like her like that. We had to have several conversations like this over our entire friendship.
I really don't know what our friend group thought about Bea and I’s relationship. She was very good at making it seem like she was best friends with everyone in our group. This is why I never talked to anyone in our group about her. I recall SOME of them saying I was ungrateful and rude to her. I absolutely was ungrateful and rude to her and I do not blame them at all for calling me that. All of the things “I” achieved was because of her. They never knew what was happening behind closed doors. They spoke up often about how unfair I was to her and that caused lots of fights in the group and even caused some people to get kicked out. There was no way Bea was kicking me out of the group because she was in love with me so whoever spoke bad about me or had an issue with me got kicked. Just like how she treated her viewers who spoke against her and didn’t agree with her. I really think things would’ve been different with our friend group if everyone knew what was going on.
We continued to make content together and play games. I was only making money from Twitch and it wasn’t much (I was still in school). 90% of the money I got was all from her.
She would sub, send bits, and even make fake accounts pretending to be people so it looked like I had a bunch of support.
I didn’t know about the fake accounts for a LONG time. She would sexualise me to some of our friends in our friend group at the time. Keep in mind I was still 16. Here's proof of her sexualizing me and some random screenshots I found. ‘’Deleted user’’ is her because she deleted her Discord account after our friendship ended.
I scribbled out the pictures of me as I feel it's unnecessary to show. I also scribbled out some names that were mentioned. They are not the ones choosing to talk about it, I am.
She knew I wanted more money and she used that to her advantage. She was sexual around me often and I got used to it. I thought the things she said were just funny stupid stuff most of the time. We were joking around one night and said I wouldn’t send a D*** picture. Eventually, I sent her the picture(she was completely okay with it and asked for more). She offered me money, so of course I agreed because I wanted it to better my setup for content creation. There were multiple videos/pictures sent and I received thousands of dollars. That is not an overexaggeration at all. The most expensive things I can think of are my razer laptop, razer keyboard, razer mouse, and a plane ticket to the UK. That’s not including the several hundred subs she sent me and bits on twitch. She would also PayPal me money too. I was okay with it at the time but I definitely regret it now that I'm older and can really see what was happening.
When I was 18, I eventually went to the UK and lived with her for almost 5 months. (5-17-2021 - 9-30-2021) I stopped streaming within 3 months of me being there I believe. When I got there the entire dynamic changed. Within the FIRST week of me being there she was already trying to have a relationship with me after I asked her before I left America if she still felt that way and she told me no. I was barely making a payout on Twitch (which was $100 at the time). Lots of my viewers who were supporting me just left(her on fakes). There was no need for her to send me money because I was there. That's all she ever wanted.
I remember very well her offering me money if she could do some sexual things to me.
We did that for a while and I'm embarrassed and ashamed to admit that. She took me on shopping sprees and everything but it wasn't out of the goodness of her heart.
When we would go out to drink she would always go to the bar and order mine for me. I never thought anything of it just because she would pay for everything because that's just how it was but it was also easier that way. I found out after SERVEAL nights out that she was ordering me doubles. I never asked for that. Her family even told her to stop.
One night we got really drunk and she kept trying to do sexual things to me even though I did not want to.
When I told her I wanted to come home, it was like pulling teeth to get her to help me. Covid was still a thing and it was making it a little complicated for me to come back. It also didn't help that I refused to tell my family what was going on. I got myself into that mess and I was going to figure it out. For the first time I felt trapped and it was SO hard trying to get home because of her.
When I got back to America, I tried my best to move on from the last few years I wasted but I couldn't. I eventually messaged her to talk. I didn’t want to talk to her about everything at the time and I was trying to keep the peace. I wanted to keep the peace just because I never wanted to be on her bad side. Still to this day I don’t want to be on her bad side. We went a while with no contact but eventually I messaged her again. I sent her a huge message explaining every single thing I could think about(took me literal days to type up). Everything that kept me up at night for months. Of course she just apologized and was passive aggressive about it all. She didn't even acknowledge most of the stuff I sent her. I felt like I wasted my time but I was hoping I would feel better after confronting her. It helped temporarily.
I am still amazed at how well she is at manipulating and gaslighting people to get things she wants. She made me feel absolutely crazy. Because of her I was severely depressed for a long time.
She truly did not like any of her viewers. She constantly talked shit about them and how annoying and stupid they were. She had this perfect image of who she wanted to be seen as but she fucked up majorly with the DTI announcement she made and with some of the other evidence others are sharing.
After everything ended, it took me a while to come to terms with everything that happened. I never thought about talking about this because I felt like it didn’t matter and i just wanted to ignore it all. She was growing a lot and I didn’t want it to look like I was clout chasing. I also just wanted to figure my life out and be left alone. I'm saying all of this now because more people need to know what she's capable of and what she has done. I’m still extremely nervous to put all of this out there just because I know how she actually is. With that being said I do not want anybody to send her threats or anything of the sort. I'm hoping I can finally let all of this go now.
(Sorry for being all over the place with some of the topics. So much happened it feels like it’s almost impossible for me to organize it all.)