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- no more school so i’m graduating soon so i have time to do useless and silly things this summer for once

- going to a very good college ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ

i just bought the anua pore cleansing oil online, cuz ik it’s a popular item that works and i remembered he was complaining about his pores :-(

i don’t want to spend too much money for my parents to be mad at me, i’ll have to work on scrapbooking a birthday card and also getting some snacks :o and a lil stuffie cuz why not

i was gonna get that abercrombie sweater but likeeee his size sold out ;-( maybe next time !!

it’s gonna be like one month with my bf, time honestly flew so fast

but i locked in for first semester!

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OHHHHV MY CLOT HOW DID I GET A BOYFRIEND OKAY 😭😭😭 (dude i need to rant but idk a friend who’d handle my shit and he literally follows my spam)

bro i actually love him so much and im like so sure of it this time like maybe he’s the one 😓 ohhh there is so much lore that happened

main thing is that he gave me a bunch of head scratches this morning since i was super sleepy TELLL MEEE WHYYYY I ACTYALLY NEEVRR LNEW I NEEDED THEM UNTIL NOW. 💀💀💀 i thought this happened in my dreams but my man actually likes holding me and giving me head scratches so this actually perfect

we were also the only ones at our table in our shared class today so i was just like holding his hand and stuff while we did work 🫠 he is actually so cool

(yesterday actyally happened so fast i can’t even like comprehend 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 but.. i’ll save that for later)

(i think it was most likely yesterday he grabbed me by the waist when we were sitting on the floor next to each other at lunch and was softly running his hand over it while my head was on his shoulder and im like combusting while writing this because this is secretly the most beautiful thing ever(

when i asked him like HOW DID HE KNKW HOW RO GRAB MH WAIST AND THIMB RUBS he said he was never this touchy and like it just felt so right with me

and exactly everything feels so right with him, nothing isn’t that awkward, we want each other forever ☹️

i dunno i think we are actually compatible (some shared interests, idk we’re both brainrotted yay?) and i am afraid he’s even more obsessed with me

i have never gotten this many compliments in a day, he makes me so well loved, i know he actually wants me

like, i think this guy meets all my dream man criteria and i just happened to find him right before the year ended and starting off 2025 with him on my side

well maybe you think it’s crazy we both think it’s gonna last forever or like how 24/7 we just text how we are so obsessed with each other with reels and stuff

- anxious about school schedules, i hope they come out tomorrow!!! i guess im a little worried about getting back into the school grind, but i have a lot more time to focus on myself

- i’ve been busy this week with a program so ive been working on a group project. i really like my group, they’re all really fun people but as usual i don’t like group projects sometimes because it can be slow, how do i contribute more, perfectionism ideas. i don’t feel too left out though and im glad we are making some progress!

- this leads to how i don’t think about my ex a lot whenever i keep myself busy. at the program i never even think about him. i feel like my healing is going great if i feel that way. eventually he’ll be like my long list of crushes that i sometimes think but never miss on a blue moon :-) i wanted to rant about this on here because i feel like ive done such a great deal than i ever thought i would. meaning i didnt think i would move on this fast.

it’s so hard when you don’t stand a chance

i’ll try to work on it for the rest of the day, forced to do some household chores and rot in my body

working on my initiative

sat prep

mentally prepare for my classes…. schools in two weeks chat

do some bracelet making and book reading

violin grind!!!!

currently going to the beach 🏖️ so i’m losing some time

finished off my summer job, meaning i have some free time to renew and start on other things!

workshop went alright :-) and my friend came over later which was so much fun!

i have made myself healthy breakfasts and stuff (yay yogurt)

life without ex has never been better

i have been using notion

grows 🌱

could be better with my sleep schedule, screen time, and physical wellness

i could be better organized

need to study for things ASAP

need to keep up with habit tracker on notion and do things i need to do :-(

practice more karate 🥋

gonna be starting on this blog since i’m really bored, nobody’s gonna find me here so i can yap all i want

and focus on self growth!

for the rest of today i’ll be

working on slides for a workshop (finish up on canva, come up with script, how to run thru demos)

hopefully graphic design a post

maybe learn some more coding

i’m gonna do a whole timelapse so i can stay focused and stuff, will be updating on progress later