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When I was small I always loved my parents and would always play with them or try to grab their attention,but as I became older they started to become distant from me and were always busy on the important things like work:⁠-⁠O.  But it was kind of okay with me too as I also had my friends whom I thought knew me better and I too wanted my parents to stop bothering me, when I used to observe my parents in my childhood I always saw them doing the mundane things like working and fighting and being depressed,maybe it was different for other people,I thought this too in my childhood ,and I always envisioned myself being more productive than they ever were and making something from out of life of having something deeper like a purpose ( lol;⁠) ).

But now as I have lived almost 20 something years of my life ,I caught myself very often being engrossed in the tech world today ,on being my laptop for hours or sitting under my blanket and using my phone always ,that too or stupid baseless reels and posts ,and now I'm starting to think why don't I have the same motivation as I had when was a child and in school who wanted to read every novel possible and see all the critically acclaimed movies that throws my mind into a spur and I really start thinking about life.yesterday when I was watching a video as the same way as always ;⁠-⁠) I learned something, that's we as a human being now a days has developed a constant need for dopamine in today's world.all these tiktoks and memes are giving us these small time spans of adrenaline rush making us feel good ,and our body as a coping mechanism is making us crave more and more ,so that we stay comfortable.

But here arises the question? Have nature created us this way to crave things that are comfortable and most often do no Good to stop us from being hurt physically or mentally,like in my childhood I was always craving attention from my parents to feel good ,and that always kept me near my parents at home ,maybe that was a way of nature to make me as a baby to keep at home and mind my own business.

So,why do we all always keep defying nature and and starts making new goals to achieve things that obviously most of the times goes in vain,and maybe it would be a good thing for us if we didn't had any hormone that are keeping us engrossed in emotions and we all keep struggling to live a best life.

Or is it ,the way the nature always wanted us to be ,maybe the idea for hormones was never to keep us protected but to experience life .So that I can feel when I'm frustrated being wasting away my life or when,I make a routine and follow it for a few days and that also gives me calm after the long run,or when I hate my parents when they are fighting all the time but also love them when they try to make me and my brother laugh and treat us to good ice cream:⁠-⁠).