yellow state of mind

give me your sleepy kisses and soft mumbles. your slow breathing and sweet dreams.

Im allergic to hookup culture and too weird to participate anyway. Die in my arms.

Thank you for engaging in the mortifying ordeal of being known so that I may partake in the euphoric experience of knowing you.

gay, straight, whatever. we all want someone to take us to the aquarium.

books?? amazing. paperbacks?? soft, cozy, may fit in your pocket, cheap so you don’t feel bad for taking notes in them. hardcovers??? beautiful, pristine, ground you into the world they hold by making you grip them tighter, the stars of every bookshelf. ebooks?? convenient, cheap, always with you, a vast library that you can hold in your palm. new books?? crisp, the smell of wood, ideas waiting to imprint themselves upon the world. old books?? objects transcending history, sweet smelling, enriched by the hands that stroked their pages. books.

planetariums art museums aquariums science museums my beloved

i go to bed. i am consumed by overwhelming loneliness. i stare at the ceiling. i long for something i can’t name. i question if i’m real. i see a funny little meme on my phone and laugh hysterically for several minutes. i get too invested in an unrealistic fantasy. i pass out around three.

i cant believe i fell for that “look angry and upset and hope someone saves you” shit in high school! how boring! what an awful way to live! i want to be so warm that ppl are gently warmed when theyre around me

like a soup

like a soup

so glad “my beloved” is a meme!!!! I am dramatic and fanciful and there is just so much to be loved in the world so I’m glad it’s appropriate to tag that endearment on to anything and everything that strikes your fancy now. “my beloved” my beloved

you'll find someone who feels like home to you and you'll wonder why you called any other place home and your spirit will feel at ease with them. hold out for that

on all levels except physical i'm crawling into my friend or lover's arms so they can hold me while they play on their phone or read or something