jack kellys problems

EVERYTHING IS SO FUCKING STUPID

feels like im always recovering. when do i get to live

"it's okay to rest for as long as you need from burnout" how long is it actually going to take though. there's stuff i wanna do.

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WHY DOES EVERYONE ON THIS APP HAVE NUCLEAR LEVELS OF CHILDHOOD TRAUMA?!

I wish I could have just one good day. One day.

“i don’t care” i say as i cry daily, look for validation in the wrong places, and relapse

if it's not that deep then why am i drowning?

soup :)

...thank you, love. I'll have some later. I'm not hungry right now.

okay… but you know its not good to not eat

I'm aware. It'll be good for me. I won't go too far.

how ya feelin? family been treatin ya alright? everything okay?

It's nothing you need to worry about... you'd stop me anyways without a care, so...

huh? of course i’m gonna worry, i love you. and you know me, always worryin…

...I just- ... I... it's nothing, Jack, I'll just- I'm gonna head home.

ill walk ya

No need. I-I can make the trip on my own, I'm not a baby.

let me rephrase, i want to walk ya home so i can spend time with you

...fine.

*he takes daveys hand*

*davey grips his hand a little tighter than usual as they walk.*

…ya sure you’re alright?

I'm fine, if that's what you're asking again.

Just-Just stop talking right now, Jack. I don't wanna hear your voice right now.

*jack, still quiet, stops.*

*jack rushes forward* davey…?

*he's barely conscious, just laying there.*

SORRY THATS MY DEPRESSING ACCOUNT JUST RESPOND 🥹🥹

hey, hey, its alright… lets just get ya home…

*he's much lighter than usual, and Jack can just barely see Davey's spine against his shirt.*

okay, i love ya, but i aint gonna carry ya back no matter how light you are. cmon, ya can lean on me love…

*his nose is bleeding from the fall and he leans on Jack as if he's actively dying.*

*davey starts to cry slowly.*

hey, we’re almost there… are you hurt?

you want me to talk? i can do that if you want, but only if you want

hey hey hey! jacks right here, hi. hello.

hey ill love you no matter hat, you know that? id rather you be the worst looking you can imagine but happy and healthy than hurting.

*he just wraps his arms around Jack as they walk, eventually stopping at his apartment complex.*

*jack sways him gently, humming softly. some tune he heard somewhere*

*Davey moves down to place his ear against Jack's chest, his sobs turning to sniffles.*

okay, let’s head in…

Mhm...

*they walk in and up to davey’s apartment*

*davey immediately walks over to the couch and passes out onto it.*

*after 20 minutes of sleeping, davey wakes up.*

*it’s storming out.* hey davey. feel any better?

I'll 'afta throw it up afterwards, but I will... for you...

nnnno, keep it down, please..

I can't do that, the other newsies 'ill call me pudgy...

Pie-Eater's allowed to eat stuff and be pudgy, I'm not because Davey's not fat, Davey's smart, nothin' else. If you want me to eat a cracker, I'll just throw it up later.

I... I'll try three. Three crackers.

alright my dear.

*he carefully eats the crackers, and looks a little sick once he finishes the third.*

hey, i get it, just try to ignore it, okay? talk to me, or just lay with me or… anything.

*he shoves his head into the crook between Jack's neck and shoulder, shaking a little.*

hmmm what to do, what to do…

...jack, I feel like I'm gonna be sick.

okay, try to relax, but its okay if you cant.

*davey tries to relax as he wraps his arms around jack, suppressing the urge to gag as he shakes harder.*

#its a bit of a far drive shhhh

#"a bit" #not far enough if you need to say "a bit" #AM I RIGHT OR AM I RIGHT #👏👏👏👏👏👏

l#ike >30 minutes 💔

#I don't know math big dog

soup :)

...thank you, love. I'll have some later. I'm not hungry right now.

okay… but you know its not good to not eat

I'm aware. It'll be good for me. I won't go too far.

how ya feelin? family been treatin ya alright? everything okay?

It's nothing you need to worry about... you'd stop me anyways without a care, so...

huh? of course i’m gonna worry, i love you. and you know me, always worryin…

...I just- ... I... it's nothing, Jack, I'll just- I'm gonna head home.

ill walk ya

No need. I-I can make the trip on my own, I'm not a baby.

let me rephrase, i want to walk ya home so i can spend time with you

...fine.

*he takes daveys hand*

*davey grips his hand a little tighter than usual as they walk.*

…ya sure you’re alright?

I'm fine, if that's what you're asking again.

Just-Just stop talking right now, Jack. I don't wanna hear your voice right now.

*jack, still quiet, stops.*

*jack rushes forward* davey…?

*he's barely conscious, just laying there.*

SORRY THATS MY DEPRESSING ACCOUNT JUST RESPOND 🥹🥹

hey, hey, its alright… lets just get ya home…

*he's much lighter than usual, and Jack can just barely see Davey's spine against his shirt.*

okay, i love ya, but i aint gonna carry ya back no matter how light you are. cmon, ya can lean on me love…

*his nose is bleeding from the fall and he leans on Jack as if he's actively dying.*

*davey starts to cry slowly.*

hey, we’re almost there… are you hurt?

you want me to talk? i can do that if you want, but only if you want

hey hey hey! jacks right here, hi. hello.

hey ill love you no matter hat, you know that? id rather you be the worst looking you can imagine but happy and healthy than hurting.

*he just wraps his arms around Jack as they walk, eventually stopping at his apartment complex.*

*jack sways him gently, humming softly. some tune he heard somewhere*

*Davey moves down to place his ear against Jack's chest, his sobs turning to sniffles.*

okay, let’s head in…

Mhm...

*they walk in and up to davey’s apartment*

*davey immediately walks over to the couch and passes out onto it.*

*after 20 minutes of sleeping, davey wakes up.*

*it’s storming out.* hey davey. feel any better?

sometimes i wonder if i'll ever enjoy being alive

man i just dont know why im so afraid all the time (<- has the disorder that makes you afraid all the time)