young gods

NOVA: you are just jealous of my talent!!! NOVA: what’s that??? i couldn’t hear you over the sound of all of that bULLSHIT! NOVA: …what if i made callie my new fave??? hmm? NOVA:  a challenge? seriously?? NOVA: you better not, sweetums :///  NOVA: i’m unfortunately aware of this, but whyyyyy???

NOEL: the talent of getting annoying songs stuck in people’s heads? NOEL: nope no bullshit just the cold hard TRUTH NOEL: lmao im p sure you’re already hers so  NOEL: but i’m the better looking twin so :) NOEL: bet i could get kicked out in a month NOEL: bc im bored and i can do i need a better reason

‘ you’re not that pleasant yourself , babe. ’ her eyebrows are raised , as if she’s finding this like a challenge . nothing out of the ordinary , though . she’s used to fighting back , it’s a main incentive she holds within her . ‘ well i’d happily let you go find someone else –- – i’d just do exactly the same . ’ & she’s not one to lose her own game ; because ronnie was a perfectionist , but a different kind of one . she knew how to MANIPULATE , she knew how to appear as an angel , as innocent in some ways … when really , she was the opposite . a devil in disguise , some may say . she get’s what she wants –- does what she wants . cares for nobody but herself –- - it’s saddening , really . & now the joint is back between her lips , taking a couple more puffs of it as it floods through her system , giving it to him to dispose of . ‘ desperate ? hilarious . ’ ronnie’s figure is close to his , pressed gently against him for the time being . however , it wasn’t until his hands moved that she thought she’d have a little bit of her own FUN . her hand shifts down , finding his bulge rather easily before palming him over his pants slowly , feigning a rather innocent look on her face . ‘ i’m sure you’ll jog your memory somehow -– - my assistance isn’t necessary , right ?? ’ so she’ll shift her hand away , attempting to take a step back from him .

‘ never said i was . ’ if carter was nothing else , he was at least self-aware .  the boy knew he was an asshole , a street rat , selfish & careless . it’s why he never bothered with relationships . he knew he could never give the other person what they wanted -- - and besides , what was the point , when he could fuck around without consequence . ‘  you think you’re cute , ’ but he’s biting his lip , hands returning to the small of her back to push their bodies closer together . ‘ i don’t need help remembering what i can do on my own , ’ his jeans are growing tighter beneath her hand , & he’s immediately pulling her back as soon as she moves away , lifting her up so she’s perched on the edge of his desk . ‘ or maybe , ’ carter moves to stand between her legs , wrapping them around his waist . ‘ i can remind you , ’ & his hands are roaming her body again , sliding beneath her skirt , one palm trailing up her inner thigh while the other glides lightly over her panties , fingers lingering over the silk . ‘ why you need me . ’ & it’s a game , a battle of wills , & he’s swooping to press kisses along her jawline because it’s a game he likes to win . 

NOVA: don’t lie to yourself, that’s quite OBVIOUSLY the best part. NOVA: you would be a very sad, very lonely bean. NOVA: ????? i don’t think you told me that, but please don’t get to military school, then i will be the very sad, very lonely bean :///// NOVA: you sir, are exaggerating. NOVA: do not do the thing, i refuse to let you do the thing.

NOEL: no the best part would be if you were here so i could make fun of u in person :/ NOEL: honestly i think my sister would be more devastated than me ur the only reason she hangs out w me i swear NOEL: yeah it happened not that long ago, whatever it’s probably an empty threat and besides i’d be v good at getting kicked out of military school it’s almost like a challenge NOEL: not leaving u anytime soon darlin NOEL: pls i’ve done worse

she held his hand , even in between classes , in the hallways , basically all the time . & honestly ? she’d have it no other way . everyone knew them –- - or at least knew of them , the head cheerleader and the athlete . three years strong , & still going . the type of relationship everyone around them c r a v e d , because the two bound for great things . both intelligent , popular , successful –- - god , they loved each other a lot , didn’t they ? asher & rylan did everything together , that was no surprise to anyone anymore . which was why she’s holding onto his hand loosely as they walk to their next class together , happy it was friday , the weekend full of activities rolling through the girls mind . smile bright on her features as she looks up at the taller boy , asher speaks , nearing the classroom . ‘ we’re going to mikayla’s party tonight , & you can stay at mine after if you like ? or we can stay at yours , i don’t mind . & then tomorrow we can get ready & then go to brunch , okay ? ’

rylan’s thumb traced circles along the side of his girlfriend’s hand , her palm fitting neatly into his . he didn’t think much about it anymore ; after three years together , her constant presence in his life felt as natural as breathing . if he were being h o n e s t , he would tell you that he hadn’t truly been listening to a word she was saying , her familiar voice bubbling a mile a minute faster than what he bothered to comprehend . ‘ sounds good , babe , ’ his agreement comes absentmindedly , his movement stopping just before the classroom door to lean her back against the wall . it didn’t matter , not really : rylan could care less for parties & pep rallies & all the other things asher put on their calendar , but he’d go every time just to keep her happy . ( and because he knew it was important to maintain their reigning status . ) his hands found her cheeks , sliding down to cup her face . ‘ you can stay at mine , my parents are out of town for the weekend . some business trip . but if i’m hungover tomorrow i’m forcing you to stay in bed with me all day , non-negotiable . ’ he’s smiling , but he already knows how the night will pan out , and he can’t help the small clench of guilt dropping like a stone into his stomach . ( he’ll find his dealer & do a few lines in the bathroom when asher isn’t paying attention -- - but what she doesn’t know can’t hurt her , right ? )

‘ mhm –-– - but i DON’T see you complaining . you just can’t resist me . ’ she’s tilting her head to the side , eyebrows raised as she’s watching him attentively now . she’d been spending night after night with him , creeping away in the mornings & going by her day normally . ‘ i should really tell you more often , but maybe i can’t stay away –- no . ’ the smallest pieces of emotions curl onto her lips , smirk loosely matching his when he’s handed her the joint . she doesn’t say thank you , she just connects it between her lips , INHALING it deeply , letting it cloud through her lungs before exhaling it in his direction , smoke rings matching his as she felt his fingers against her skin . ‘ at least you’ve caught on , it took you a while . ’ ronnie continues , letting more of the drug fall through her system . ‘ if we both know , then why are your hands just on my waist . ’

‘ i’m complaining right now: you’re fuckin’ annoying. ’ but he’s smirking , brown orbs never leaving the curve of her figure. ‘ you’re a good fuck but i could find another in a heartbeat. i just don’t feel like it right now. ’ in truth , carter hadn’t been with anyone else in a while. he didn’t let himself think much of it. ‘ of course you can’t resist me , babe , i’m the best you’ve ever had. ’ he grabs the joint again , free hand moving toward the small of her back to keep her CLOSE. smoke enters and leaves his lungs smoothly , head tilted back as he blows tendrils above her. ‘ hm , i didn’t realize you were so desperate. ’  he nimbly places the joint back between her lips. ‘ i can move them here , ’ palms slide up her side , tracing just below her breasts. ‘ or here , ’ back down her back toward her ass , fingers grazing beneath her skirt. he’s smiling , now , listening for a hitch in her breath. ‘ maybe we both don’t know. maybe i need a little reminding. ’

COLTON: do u purposely snap me at the worst possible times… COLTON: i was with my gf all day and i told u that COLTON: the nudes are great but maybe when i’m alone they’d be better COLTON: aka now

SERENA: i snapped u bc i wanted to fuck i wasn’t really thinking about ur timeline SERENA: guess i just wanted to give u something to remember me by :)  SERENA: 2 nudes in 1 day is asking a lot of me idk if i’m feeling that generous SERENA: ask a little nicer babe

NOVA: yooou are my sunshine, my ooonly sunshine, yoooou make me happy when skies are gray!! ~  😊 NOVA:  you know if you didn’t, you’d miss me WAY too much! NOVA:  oh shush, i already know that, now you just have to convince the twenty thousand other people who question you on the daily. NOVA:  the recital has been planned for six months, we’ve been practicing day in and day out for this!!! the only way i’d skip it, is if you were dying. are you dying, noel??t NOVA: THAT IS  TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE, NOT SO WONDERFUL, ABSOLUTELY RIDICULOUS IDEA!!!  I VOTE ABSOLUTELY NOT, WHAT THE HECK.

NOEL: the worst part is i can literally hear you singing that song in my head NOEL: nah i’d just get drunk a lot more NOEL: i can’t even convince my parents lol did i tell you they threatened to send me to military school the other day NOEL: yes i am dying sos you’re the only one who can save me NOEL: ok so i’m doing it cool glad we decided

NOVA: sorry sunshine, no can do!  NOVA: sooo when are you taking over the family business?? jokes jokes!! i’m kidding! :P  NOVA: i /told/ you!!  the girls are putting on a recital tonight. your galas just so happen to have TERRIBLE timing. 

NOEL: idk what about this face makes you think i’m a sunshine NOEL: haha funny! see if i bring you on vacation next time! NOEL: i literally am never taking over these dumb hotels. i’ve lost too many brain cells it’s over for me i’m resigned to this life i have chosen NOEL: or maybe your recital has terrible timing?? and i am obviously the most important thing in your life so ??? NOEL: ok fine since i’m alone doing a line of coke in the bathroom to get through the next 2 hours good idea yes or no

‘ you’re the one still going on about it –- really you should stop. ’ the words roll off her tongue , no senses of emotion on her porcelain features . ronnie just keeps the glass pressed against her lips , lipstick stains on the brim as she finally looks at him , blue eyes shallow , COLD . even when she laughs , she’s not smiling –– - it’s more of a scoff at his stupidity she’s sensing . ‘ has anyone ever told you how fucking CRAZY you are ? don’t even say that word –– - it’s WEAK . ’ eyes narrowing as she see’s his smirk , shaking her head before she’s got her hand out for the joint he’s smoking . ‘ your stupidity on this topic has almost made me not want to fuck you –– - now pass me the joint. ’

‘ you’re a fuckin’ piece of work, you know that? ’ amber orbs roll toward the ceiling. ‘ don’t know why i put up with you, really. ’ in truth , the girl’s presence had become a regular occurrence , familiar as breathing , stumbling into bed so wasted the world became nothing but a blur of skin and tangled bedsheets. smirking again , he takes another hit , body visibly relaxing as the drugs take hold. ‘ you have, actually, about a million times. yet you just can’t stay away. ’ ignoring her outstretched palm , his chest expands in another inhale , smoke blowing against her delicate features before he finally hands off the joint. his hands move toward her waist , pushing up the hem of her shirt , thumbs rubbing small circles against her skin. ‘ i’m starting to think you just stick around for my DEALING habits. if you don’t want to fuck you can show yourself to the door. but i think we both know what you came here for. ’

‘ you’re right , this conversation is pathetic. ’ the words fall from her lips , disregarding everything WEAK that was bubbling in her as the glass she was holding between her slender fingers is pressed to her red painted lips , relishing in the familiar  burning sensation captured in her throat . ‘ the rest is bullshit that i’m never going to feel . you fucking me is as good as it’ll get . ’ and she’s looking ahead , not at him as she takes another drink , waiting for the part where everything becomes numb .

‘ then why are you still talking ? ’ despite the warm rush of whiskey through his bloodstream , carter is still entirely too aware of her body next to his, blonde hair like honey in his narrow bedroom. ‘ chill, no one asked. i don’t give a fuck what you FEEL. ’ he’s standing because he doesn’t know what else to do, abandoning the empty bottle on the floor. he rummages around in a dresser drawer for the joint he had stashed there, abandoned and half forgotten, earlier that day. he finds it & brings it to his lips before finally turning to face her, & god does he want her, in the most terrifyingly aching sort of way. bringing a lighter to the tip of the rolled paper , he inhales deeply before releasing a ring of smoke into the air. ‘ you got it all wrong, darlin’. you’ll fall hopelessly in love with me, obviously. ’ a smirk creeps across his features. ‘ but all i can give you is my body. try not to be too devastated that your emotions are forever unrequited. ’

Margaret Atwood, The Handmaid’s Tale (via frostborn)