FANTASY

how ppl treat you when you’re not at your best says a lot

I think the fast paced society we live in currently has brainwashed me into thinking i can upgrade myself and my life just as fast as when i restart my computer or phone. I have forgotten the natural cycles of life… how the moon takes her time to be full or how the crops take their time to grow their fruits. 

There is never anything you can do right for the wrong person. They will always perceive your effort as never enough. Therefore placing you in a position where you over extend yourself and become exhausted at the expense of someone else's happiness.

I have to remind myself sometimes that my life definitely was never supposed to be one defined by accomplishments but instead finding as many ways as possible to root myself to this world after it tried multiple times to shake me off its back. I’m getting full as a deer tick baby

trying to heal, while trying to grieve, while trying to live, while trying to forgive, while trying to love, while trying to be loved