My Yaniverse

Aug. 3, 2023

Lol. It's been so long since I've written something unrelated to my job. hehe

Looking back, I can't help but wonder when exactly I transitioned into adulthood. It feels like just a few years ago, but at the same time, it seems like time is slipping away too quickly. chr

Yani, you've been through so much, and I bet your present situation is a mix of what you planned and what life threw your way. I hope you keep the memories of the days when you fell for someone and experienced the bittersweet taste of love—the butterflies those love letters brought, the colorful words etched in your heart, and all the thoughtful gifts you've learned to cherish.

Life may not have unfolded exactly as you imagined, but I know you're grateful for everything. Even as a kid, you were always so caring, feeling deeply for others. Your patience and understanding with people have always amazed me too. Making those around you happy has always been your priority. Now, you find yourself in a wonderful place, surrounded by kind friends and great colleagues. It might not be the best place (compared to where you planned to be), but you make the most out of it.

You used to fear uncertainty, but I'm glad to see you embracing life and love, knowing that they can't always fit into the confines of books. I'm proud of you for owning up to your mistakes and for always finding the courage to try again. You're open to possibilities and exploring new things. Who would have thought that a tiny little girl like you, with no sports background, could learn to love playing frisbee, running, chasing, and exploring?

"You have the most expressive eyes," you said. Sigh. I believed you.

I still don't know... Is it the reflection of every bit of me from my secrets no words could unfold to my shallow happiness, a given sight to behold; Or is it the sparkles you knew you brought that I without a second thought would admit, with certainty that you and I would fit That you loved more about me.

You'll never know... With the same glass you used to read me through I memorized and engraved your complexity on tissue folds and pumped blood within me; With the stares that met and laid us both naked, deep, hard and unstoppable I fell; but your heart remained calm and still I ended up hiding and locking myself up in a shelf.