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If there are other combos/concepts you’d like to see, feel free to hmu with em 👀 The winning one will be started when I finish “Influence” (a XY/WX fic)

And then I remembered…

My day off is Friday this week 😐 and I can’t stay up late Thursday because I have a doctor’s appointment first thing Friday morning or they won’t refill my T because my prescription is out of refills and my old doctor retired… and it’s an hour away 😭😭😭

(I deserve double chocolate chip vegan muffins. Praying the store by the doctor’s office has them in stock Friday)

I miss when my tiktoks got views. My most popular edits easily broke 1K within a day. I have edits for the Nie bros that hit 30k+ - but now I can’t break 1K no matter how hard I try. I have a WangXian edit from March that’s barely past 900 views. I’ve started moving on to other fandoms, thinking maybe there aren’t MDZS fans on TikTok anymore. I’m seeing similar results, though.

It’s disheartening to see content you work so hard for so so poorly. I love making edits - any excuse to make people sad. It was my hobby. I would have people commenting that I need to pay for their therapy bills. It was my greatest joy.

I miss it and I miss the fandom feeling. I think it’s why I’m trying to focus on fanfics for now. It’s easier to engage with people in fanfics. I can make content for ships more easily to attract people with taste as weird as mine. And they’re so excited for content, I may even get lucky enough to get a comment!

My two current WIP fics.

Safe Haven is currently up on AO3 as a WIP with one chapter out. It is following Wen Chao and Xue Yang in a modern AU. I’m hoping to really capture the concept of found family. I also realized after publishing that this is the 2nd fic I’ve posted where a character lost an arm at the start (the other being a NieYao fic - In Case of Emergency, Break to Open). I think this one will be much messier than the other in that Wen Chao isn’t someone I write as being as stubborn as Mingjue and Xue Yang isn’t as “docile” as Meng Yao. So it’ll be a fun adventure. (Also I’ll need to reread that NieYao fic because I could’ve sworn it was finished?)

One episode in and I feel a little empty 😐 idk if I can binge this one

I bit off more than I could chew and may need to watch something fluffy tomorrow instead

Anyone wanna send some recs for anime available on Crunchyroll? I just finished Skip and Loafer. Before that it was Bean Counter (A+ I need more). Before that it was Tamon’s B-Side (ending wasn’t great, but I enjoyed imagining it as a SVSSS AU). I’m also working through An Observation Log of my Fiance Who Calls Herself a Villainess, Always a Catch, and Pardon the Intrusion I’m Home! as they come out (Not really loving that third one, though).

I adored The Dark History of the Reincarnated Villainess, lost interest in SHIROHIYO - Reincarnated as a Neglected Noble: Raising My Younger Brother, binged Recovery of an MMO Junky really fast (It was nice getting to watch an anime about gamers that wasn’t about high schoolers). Also while I’m not an SAO fan, I did really enjoy Gungale Online! Ah- and I couldn’t finish May I Ask For One Final Thing because I couldn’t stand the male lead and how he spoke about the main character

Y’all, I made it worse.

I swore I’d write one of the WIP fics. I was very excited to write it.

And then I sat down… and started another SangXu fic. Please forgive me, any of my readers that see this

And then I couldn’t figure out what to write

I gave up last night at 10pm and said I’d just go to bed early despite having been committed to stay up late

I was laying there, daydreaming

And then a vision came to me - an image I’ve been daydreaming of: Wen Xu, standing over the body of his father, after taking him down to protect someone.

Which is why, instead of continuing literally any of my WIP fics that people have commented on recently, I wrote a brand new one-shot about Wen Xu being delusional about Nie Huaisang…

I’m sorry to my NieYao, XianShe, and Guangshan/Zhuliu fans 🥲 the inspiration of a writer is unpredictable

I ask myself why I’m broke and then I do stuff like this.

I will say, so far A Howl of the Heart is the best one. I went in expecting an amnesia brainwashing story, but I basically got a trope I feel I’ve bumped into too many times but cling to every time (Gojo/Geto fans and The Summer Hikaru Died fans may know the trope too well haha). I am heartbroken that I have to wait for July for vol 2, I’m so captivated and desperate for more and my life is temporarily devoid of meaning… 😭😭😭

I actually really disliked Platinum Blood. I feel like chapter 1 was misplaced in the story and while I’ve been reading manga long enough to not be bothered by odd tropes and content, the implications of how Gil reacted towards the kid was a little uncomfortable and it’s not really addressed since it’s a one-shot.

My Bias is Showing was better than I expected. I have really been enjoying idol stories (as a KPop fan myself) and was excited to read this one. As usual, the idol has some red flags in him, but it was still really cute. (Other stories featuring idol culture that I’ve read/watched are Stan By Me, Tamon’s B-Side, and The Yakuza’s Bias). I could see myself potentially getting more volumes of the series.

How to Deal When Your Intimidating Neighbor is Actually an Omega was also really, really good!!! I love Omegaverse stories and have been craving them, but struggling to find more. My shelves aren’t organized, so I’ve lost track of some series I’m reading and decided to seek out something new. What I really loved about this manga’s first volume is that it’s everything I want from an Omegaverse story - a respectful alpha who does his best to not just mindlessly impregnate or mark the omega. I was reminded of some Omegaverse fanfics I’ve written (I have an unfinished series focused mostly on fated mates) and the alpha reminded me of how I write two of the alphas in the series (for MDZS/The Untamed fans - the alphas are Wei Changze and Wei Wuxian. I took a real “like father, like son” approach for them in the series haha). Anyway, it’s amazing, but the story can easily feel complete after the first volume, so I’m not sure if I’ll be buying vol 2 anytime soon.

Anyway- I am working through vol 1 of Semantic Error. This impulsively pile of purchases was because I was craving a modern love story rather than something set in Ancient China (I’m a danmei collector haha) so I asked for recs on TikTok. Semantic Error is something many recommend and I didn’t own any Korean novels, so I went for it. Riverbay Road also sounded good, which is why I bought it. I did also order You’re Too Op! off Yiggybean, since it was recommended, but idk when that will ship and get here.

Y’all!!! He exists now!!! My son exists!!!

I’ll be slowly seeking out 5 more artists to commission (my budget is $40USD pre-tip) because I want 6-9 total icons of him.

It’ll mainly be “here are a few references and a basic description of him as a person” and seeing how the artists bring him to life. I actually am hoping for small differences in each artwork to represent the idea that every person you meet sees you slightly different, which shapes their relationship to you.

(Since his cursed technique is about bonds)

I have a lot of art I’ve accumulated over the years of OCs I don’t use, adopts. my online personas, and I’ve finally gotten some art of my fursona (he’s a yellow ferret and I love him!)

But I’m struggle to find doc layouts with picture set ups that properly have areas for my to show off art work I’ve accumulated (and I love the artwork!)