june

when life goes up, so does my weight. istg im getting fatter. im scared because i want to lose weight, but the only thing gaining weight gave me was tits and ass. I know as soon as I lose weight they’ll be gone. i haven’t felt as ugly in a while as i do right now. my hair is shit, my face is shit, my life is shit, i can hardly drive, no job. and don’t get me wrong im doing all i can to get all of this back, but at the same time i feel like in getting uglier.

last night i had an outfit planned to wear today cause if you saw in some of my previous posts i was gonna go out w my bf today. i put it on and i absolutely was reminded why i need to lose weight, and why i have safe clothes. i have a wide ribcage so i need to lose a drastic amount of weight for my mid section to look smaller. and on that note, i genuinely envy people with a small ribcage and bone structure, because i have friends who are heavier than me and they still have a small waist. throughout my life i’ve genuinely considered getting a couple of my ribs removed to have a smaller waist because no matter how much i lose i hate the way my body is shaped.