Logging back into this app since last May is... surely something. Time isn't real and I'm just as chronically depressed if not more as I was then. Now in many more ways too.
Maybe I need to start using this app again just to write out my thoughts.. I really don't try and think about anything really.. so it's why I don't. I know I'm falling back into bad habits and I think it's why I am slightly distancing myself because I'm just scared of disappointing the few people I do have around still. I honestly don't know how..
It's currently 1 am, I have work in 6 hours, which means I need to leave my house in 5 hours and it's apparently storming so bad that there's a flood watch.
Fun.
We'll see how much I can keep any form of consistency because I really am desperate. I just want to have something to grasp onto... but nothing ends up sticking for months... so many months now.
I want a hug and a normal sleep schedule.














