lotis.

there is too much unspoken

(2018)

this this isn’t right it never was but you’ve got a dark side that  I love what did you want from me? I can’t see how I could be what you need it’s impossible to me cause it wasn’t my lips it wasn’t my touch it wasn’t my thighs clutching you at night when we fucked it wasn’t this some type of love that I’ve been handing out to anyone that made you want me all along it wasn’t this what do you want with this? I want you underneath my skin I thought you’d run from this but you wanted more you wanted more it wasn’t my lips it wasn’t my touch it wasn’t my thighs it wasn’t my touch it wasn’t this stay here in my dreams.. there’s too much you won’t want to know about me stay here in my dreams stay here in my dreams

I think of you all the time how could I forget? you haunt my soul you haunt my mind (I take another hit…) you stand alone I can feel the violence in your cold empty bones follow me I think you’re gonna swallow me whole you’re the ghost i need the most what if you never go? what if you never go? I feel you inside of my head I think that it’s all inside my head I think that it’s all inside my head I think that it’s all inside my head

and you know it, too.

you are lost so far below I know we can’t go back to this place ever again lost on the other side of all these walls that I’ve built to keep you out I’m so far below and you’re so far away you were home you were my home… say that it’s not over again lie to me, lie to me

maybe I want to be destroyed.

trying to hide it the best I can, but you know things never change

and I could swear you were falling for me too

(I’m driving you insane with my restless brain, but I can’t change)

did I let that part of me die when you left?