Words & Stuff

See me

No one can hear me

No one can see me

I’m losing myself

I can’t seem to grasp myself

Somebody hear me

Somebody see me

Please

I’m beginning to lose myself

Please!

Every time I turned my back you were there behind me- always looking up to me with the greatest admiration.

That quickly became your biggest mistake and my forever most heartfelt regret.

All you ever wanted was my love and acceptance, but instead you had to grow up sooner than you should have because of my selfish mistakes.

I am sorry I abandoned you.

I’m sorry I let you down.

Quit allowing yourself to believe you’re unworthy of the love you deserve.

I find myself often reminiscing about our time together.

I catch myself trying so hard to remember every moment in our chapter together.

I know I’m still holding on to something that will never be again.

All of them.

I try to stay interested.

Find something in them to keep me intrigued.

It’s never enough.

I always lose interest.

You bore me.

All of you.

I can’t seem to catch my breath.

It’s been days..

What the hell is going on with me?

Again, I can’t breathe.

I can’t think.

I can’t see.

I can’t even hear right.

I need to get out.

I can’t breathe.

I feel like I’m suffocating.

Everything is beginning to get quiet now.

Everything is beginning to get dark now.

Everything is so far away now.

Suddenly, I feel nothing anymore.

All is quiet. All is dark.

Finally, I can breathe.

I’m out with my new guy. He’s great & I’ve begun to forget about you. Out of nowhere you decide to come back around asking my friend to remind me of what we once had.

So selfish.

You’re supposed to be happy in your new relationship. I truly do wish you the best.

Please, reminisce to yourself.

Unpredictable & at times Regretful experiences that teach us a different type of love.

Moments we never imagined were needed to mold us into who we need to be.

Learn from your experiences & take in the raw moments, but be cautious not to let them mislead you.

Appreciate every moment & new experience.... But, don’t let them blind you from the rest.

These moments are just that, Moments.

Bright Lights

Crying

Shouting

Bright lights

Daddy

Backseat of a car

Handcuffs

Crying

Bright lights

Home upside down

Confusion

Crying

Heartache

We’ve grown up together.

We’ve built a family.

But I can’t forget.

All the unspoken pain.

Everything.

I hate myself for how low & alone you’ve made me feel.

Sometimes I even hate you.

I need to getaway from you.

I hate the person you think that I am.

I hate that you can’t see the person I truly am.

I need to get away.

For us.

For me.

I love you

I’m not going anywhere

Let me love you

I won’t hurt you

I need you

Don’t leave

My heart hurts

You’re my world

I just want to take care of you

We’re building a life together

All I want is to make you happy

You’re pushing me away

I’m not okay with us ending

You’re fu**ing us up

It was a long time coming

You did this

Make yourself happy