You know the pinch, Bretodeau!

Ok so I really seriously need to stop falling in love with tv show characters. This means you Ben Wyatt, Kirito, Danny Castellano....the rest....

Xbox One. Destiny. Truffle risotto. Best housemates ever. 

You know your life has changed drastically without you knowing when after a month you get a day off to stop and sleep and realise you've spent that month writing, recording, producing and talking to publishers. I mean, who even gets to say that as a sentence? What even is this? It's easy to feel the stress, it's way way harder to look past the stress and realise how goddamn lucky I am. Though I like to think of it as a mixture of luck and years of really hard work. Welcome to the industry right?

Oh man, fuck today, fuck today right off. Need to go home and be with my people and then do nothing ever again ever. Yes. 

True love is a boyfriend who buys who Yogo.

It's strange when good dreams bring up the worst memories. Waking up and thinking 'oh, that's not how it is anymore' is a constant body-blow I'd rather not deal with. Old texts, old emails - you shouldn't keep these things but it's like poking a bruise, just can't help but experience that pain all over again. 

This has been both the most stressful and the most amazing year. I am so incredibly grateful for the opportunities I've been given, the people I've met, the work I've done, the music I've made, the things I've achieved. There were rough patches - people have this amazing ability to target your weaknesses with extreme accuracy, to pull you down and stomp all over your self-worth, to lie and make you feel small - but then there are the good ones who assure you otherwise. You know they'll always be there for you. I live with outstanding examples of 'good people'. I feel sad and sorry for what I've lost - I hope wherever you are and whatever you're doing that you feel better for it - but that's the joy of writing songs - you never really lose anything. 

AAARRRRRRGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH. 4 letters, so emotion, much feels.