Equinox

“Nothing hurts more than realizing they meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to them.”

“My heart has cried more than my eyes will ever do.”

“I’m exhausted from trying to be stronger than I feel.”

“There is a terrible emptiness in me, an indifference that hurts.”

“And I realize that no matter where I am, whether in a little room full of thought, or in this endless universe of stars and mountains, it’s all in my mind.”

“When you’re around someone so much, for so long, they become a part of you. And when they change or go away, you don’t know who you are without them.”

“It’s hard to wait around for something you know might never happen, but it’s even harder to give up when it’s everything you want.”

“Sometimes you are so emotionally drained that even sleep doesn’t do anything anymore. You wake up still tired. And it just doesn’t go away.”

But knowing what I don't want to do doesn't help me figure out what I do want to do. I could do just about anything if somebody made me. But I don't have an image of the one thing I really want to do. That's my problem now. I can't find the image.