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i had accepted it now that i was in college. but its okay, because my life is more than some unrequited love.

kiara and i had a really early class on mondays, so we’d usually get breakfast with sarah after, who’d join once she woke up.

'…good morning girls! how are we feeling?' sarah smiled as she approached the booth kie and i had reserved at the local cafe.

'feeling good sarah how are you?' i replied, a smile tugging at my lips as she sat across from me.

'why do you always look so suspicious?' sarah said.

i laughed before apologising, 'i'm sorry! your presence just makes me happy.'

as we ate our food we had caught up on what we did over the weekend away from each other.

'also, did we make a decision about going to that frat party on friday?' kiara asked.

'i'm happy to go, but i don't mind if we don't.' i answered, digging into the last few bits of my pancake.

'i think we should go, we need to let lose now that the wave of assignments is over.' sarah replied.

'okay lets go! should we plan now?' kiara offered.

'might as well. i know rafes going but we will probably just meet him there. who is coming with us? i assume john b and jj?' i asked, having talked to rafe about the same party the other day.

'i'll ask john b. he'll probably come if jj comes.' sarah replied.

‘jj will definitely come.’ kiara nods.

'ok cute! we're going to have so much fun. i think rafe will bring ava though.' sarah informed us, mainly me in which i playfully roll my eyes in response.

in highschool i had a small crush on rafe that sarah and kiara were still hung up on. they swore we were soulmates. though i've stated that im over it, they claim i'm not.

i did have real feelings for him at one point though, and it was hard not to. as my bestfriend he treated me very well. and having kissed twice (circumstantially), it didn’t help my will to not like him. kissing was really intimate for me, even if it was just from seven minutes in heaven and being drunk on new years. but i wasn't going to kid myself. the kisses were circumstantial. i didn't want to live in a state of delusion or have hope just to get my feelings hurt, so i learnt to accept it and move on. but that didn't mean all those feelings just disappeared.

nowadays i didn't bother with anything romantical in association with rafe. i hadn't expressed any recent crushing on him, but sarah and kiara weren't dumb. they knew that it wasn’t a random crush and that it was true feelings.

don't get me wrong though. even if i wasn't as over rafe as i claimed to be, i'd moved on. i had other things in my life, opportunities with other men and the bestest friends any girl could ask for.

'sarah it really doesn't matter. lets go out and have a good time ok?' i replied. i received a knowing look from both the girls.