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Insane to lose 40lbs and feel the same way about your body. I just want peace lol

I love being faint and weak and like im wasting away from not eating and over exercising, its so powerful and makes me feel hot tbh 🙃

My moms friends are dying. They were all so beautiful.

thought I should record this somewhere, idk. thinking about my earliest memories and first dreams, my 1st ever dream I think I was 7. it's in b&w, im in an old store called 'the pantry'. we used to go there alot to get candy and stuff. Anyway, there is a man in the back making me sit in a chair as he puts a flathead screwdriver to my kneecap and turns it. empty bucket is at my feet, he is kneeled down, looks up to me and says he's not stopping until we fill this bucket, my knee is bleeding into the bucket. He is touching my other knee. Then it ends. Weird. 7 years old. Adults - hug your kids, they could be having fucked up confusing dreams like that and have no way of explaining it to you at the time.