I pay to send his 8y/o son to see him for Christmas and this is the shit he sends me because I didn’t reply while I was driving him to the airport. Wtf.

I’m really struggling at the moment. Struggling to think, struggling to live. I feel completely void of happiness and hope inside. The only words I hear inside are the ones I’m trying to hide from. They say the most horrible things to me and I try so fucking hard to block them out or to tell them they’re wrong but are they really wrong? It’s hard to ignore the only words people have ever really spoken to you. I guess this feeling will pass before too long but it’ll come back, it always does. I’m really sick of the cycle. What’s the point anyway?