“機嫌良くしていられるというのが大人の条件である。何故か。不機嫌さをもって他者をコントロールすることが許されるのは子供だけだからである。泣いたり、怒ったりして要求を通せるのは相手が大人だからである。どんなに年をとっても不機嫌さで他者をコントロールしようとするのは赤子に等しい。”

“Being lowkey gets addicting. You never want to share things about yourself anymore. You just want to keep it all because it feels sacred.”

「あなたは頭が固いから、たくさん恋愛して柔らかくなって、人を見る目を磨くといいわよ。結婚する前ならどんな恋をしようと構わないからどんどんおやりなさい。既婚者を相手にしては駄目。【どう上手くやるか】しか考えない相手と恋は出来ない」 と教えてくれた高校時代の恩師とは、今でも仲良し。

I used to think environmental feminism was the whitest most Birkenstock organic oatmeal exclusive “goofy white feminist” thing ever. Then one day my professor told me about how it’s a reproductive justice issue that like ¼ Black kids in a neighborhood in the south Bronx have asthma because there’s a giant power plant / waste center thing by where they live or something. And the environmental standards are so low that it affects their health and livelihood etc. and it literally changed my entire life lol. then I thought about the garment industry and environmental waste from that and how it affects those making the clothes. and I thought about who those creative garment workers are!!!!!!!!! And why their work is undervalued and the implications etc. and how this is actually in every facet of my life and not just like white woman ignoring the lives and issues of PoC to pick up bottles on the beach. Like this is serious. It’s just life changing really to realize how shallow and goofy I was being avoiding these issues.

Dear non-Asian people,

I did then what I knew how to do. Now that I know better, I do better.