gabrealism

Today I am out of alignment with myself because of someone else

I just wanna jam out in the car with you again

I want to dance with you to music we shared together

I wanna hold you in my arms and protect you for a few minutes

I want to stare into your beautiful eyes

And see you smile

It sucks to still love you the same

We’re both not in a good place right now

I hope we’re both okay one day

I fucking miss you

I’m hoping time will fix things

I’m literally so fucking sad

My fuck-everything-levels are through the roof

I have to stop wanting to go away and restart everything

I should be able to fix this

It’s so hard to get out of this hole I dig myself in

I just want to quit literally everything

Fuck everything

I know I can be stronger than this but right now it really doesn’t feel like it

I was fine before

And now everything is a mess

I’m literally a fucking mess

Fuck these feelings dude

It will never be the right time or place for anything

You just gotta deal and go with it

Life will give you blessings

Test you

And take them away

It’s just how it goes

And you kinda just have to be okay with that

Or else you’ll suffer forever

You can only be happy if you let yourself

I think I am happy

I have been crying all day and it’s dumb bc I shouldn’t be sad

I really hope things will be okay for the both of us. I want the best for you. And I will be there for you always.

I’m sad to have to let you go

But I have to because I really fucking care about you and I really do love you with all my heart.

Your decision wasn’t selfish

It was out of self love

And I respect that

I will always be sad that it wasn’t meant to be

But I won’t give up on you

Just for right now I will so you can build yourself up again

Summer is almost ending

Your lips felt like home

And I’m homesick

I will fight for you