hi

I'm not sure of what i'm feeling right now. But im sure he deserves someone else. Someone who can provide him with happiness, someone better. I feel like a though i hate him but at the same time, i just cant stop myself from him. I dont want to hurt him, because i know i will. I should backoff and just ignore him. But how? Ugh. Maybe i was meant to stay like this all the time. Maybe im fated for all this. If only he knew what i was feeling. Oh, if only.

My best friend said i'll never get a chance with the boy that i like. But of course, she warned me that what she said may hurt me and sure enough i was hurt. But hey, she's speaking the truth. A fact. A fact that i cant run away from. He wont like me. He never will. He just has this thinking that he will never ever ever ever ever like me. Its like so called friend zoning me but i havent confess. Im scared. I must keep this feelings inside of me. What she said was right. If the person i love is the cause behind all these tears and hurt, i should stop talking to him.