im not trying my hardest but im very tired which i think should be taken into consideration

sry but depression for me isn’t smudged mascara and crying into a boy’s chest and acting romantic and reckless, it’s honestly just staring at the wall and not showering for days and not going out with friends and feeling so fucking disconnected from everything that i can barely breathe. it’s not pretty. it doesn’t have to be pretty. fuck you for trying to make a mental illness aesthetically pleasing, like it’s something i should be proud of. 

im living in a constant state of isolation and desperation

i cant wait to be a piece of shit w/ a bachelors degree

in this house we do grandma activities

Sleep is literally the most pleasurable thing ever why do I deprive myself of it lmao

sometimes, realizing what you deserve is the first step to recovery