☹World is a Fuck☹

I could even learn how to love, like you

What it can do to you. This entire movie had me up a wall I dont even know where to begin.

They really got the details right when it comes to being abandoned. How spinel didnt want to be away from Steven even if it was for a second. How she got angry when he ask her to wait there.

I also noticed the small moments where spinel kept feeling like she was being left out or abandoned when she wasnt getting enough attention. The moment where she says "I just felt a bunch of feelings come back to me" which is exacly what happens there triggers from trama shes had

And can we PLEASE talk about how when they were singing "found" shes chosing steven!! As they say shell learn to love again with someone she follows his footsteps and reaches for him and Steven motions someone out there and points to the world. but shes looking at him...

What probably hit the most is once spinel and Steven were actually friends. And she disabled the thing that was going to destroy earth. She was sent in a state of panic paranoia and fear. Jumping to conclusions assuming no one wants her because of everything she has done.

And last but not least at the end where shes fighting Steven and says "I use to be just not good enough for pink, now I'm not good at all" is such a horrendous thought that people have when it comes to abandonment they blame themselves and ultimately self destruct.

But hearing her last words "Friendship isnt going to be easy for me, I'm gonna have to work at it. You make me wanna try I've already messed up bad with you I wish I could just start from scratch" hit home real hard

As someone who suffers from bpd every type of relationship I come across is difficult because of childhood trama/abandonment. And sometimes I dont even really realize what I'm doing that can harm others I just wanna say I really feel recognized like rebecca has touched every topic I've suffered with and I wanna say anyone suffering like me and spinel here we are not alone its gonna take alot of work to fix the mess other people caused on us but if we dont give up we can make it

Counting the seconds

Standing alone

Someday, somewhere, somehow,

SPINEL - WHEN SHE LOVED ME

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