This is Me

Just a reminder in case your mind is playing tricks on you today:

Delusional:

Numb.

“I think, eventually, I’ll be okay. Eventually, the thought of you won’t send my heart racing or stop my breath. Eventually, you’ll just be a bittersweet memory that I can look back on from time to time without aching. In time, the hole in my heart that’s shaped like you will heal over and scar. I’ll always carry a piece of you with me, but eventually, I will finally be able to let you go.”

But if someone breaks your heart, you can’t just run away from it. You can’t throw away the pain. You always carry it with you. You always carry it with you when you see that person, when you see them laughing, when you hear that voice. And then you can’t breathe. Every time. And every time your heart gets a new crack.

“she drinks a little too much and cries a little too often, and the music she paints are full of colours you created.”

I wanted to tell you something. But whenever you look at me, I can’t breathe and you take all my words away. And I want to tell you something now. With all my heart and with every heartbeat, with every pieces of me, I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. And I will never stop. Because these words are the only ones I can think of when I see you.

This “love” thing, I don’t wanna do it anymore.

“That’s the thing, someone can fuck you over and fuck you over and fuck you over… but at the end of the day your twisted heart still wants them”

“The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, & all they can do is stare blankly.”