Rachael

i. Hold her hand so everyone will know she’s yours ii. Kiss her whenever you want to, no one will stop you. iii. Hug her tight and never let go. iv. Let her lay down your chest, she likes to hear your heart as well. v. Tell her you love her because sometimes that’s all that she needs. vi. Call her every time you can. vii. Stare at her eyes, it proves that she’s the only one you see. viii. Ask her how she is, she needs somebody who’s there whether she’s happy or not. ix. Tell her you miss her even if you just saw each other a minute ago. x. Tell her she’s yours and you’re hers, she loves that, trust me.

And then we never spoke again.

I’m so sick of reducing lovers to lessons. How to let go. How to stay. How to ask for what the heart wants.

sometimes i still miss him even after everything he did to me. i think part of me is still in love with him and i hate that about myself.

That you were the greatest boyfriend alive. That you were, um…generous and kind and strong. That as much as I wish we’d met when I was older and more mature, if I hadn’t had you with me then, I wouldn’t be the person I am today. That you taught me what safe feels like.