On valentines while my man was telling me sweet nothings I had the audacity to say “why do you care about valentines now you’ve never cared before”
& he was genuinely flabbergasted and asked why I said that and I came out of my subconscious into my conscious and remembered this man wrote me a sweet ass card and got me a whole expensive bouquet and made sure my pleasure was his focus last year and that *actually* I didn’t have any reason to say that to him because I was talking about my ex!!
My bitch ass ex that literally rotted my brain in all the ways he didn’t give a shit and never would and I apologized immediately because yikes bitch wtf
& this is why that man will stay blocked forever because how dare you call me 2 years after everything and try to rekindle some shit when every part of our dynamic was damaging and I don’t ever want to go back to that mentality
He really called me in December twice with no text, got blocked and exorcised by my reiki lady, then called Again this year from an unknown number and I picked up because i thought it was my man calling from his coworkers number when his phone died
Talking to me about “I hope I’m not triggering you, you were a good woman, I know I abused you, I don’t know if you’re in a relationship but can we be friends, I dream about you all the time and my mom said to call you” ick, ew, vomit, taking advice from a succubus, looking for validation of your conscience from me after all this time. Same old phrases after all this time. Same emotional abuse after all this time.
Stop trying to make our existences coincide that generational curse is being actively broken.
I never want my instinct to Ever be to respond to someone that cares for me from the hopeless, resentful, disgusting mental perspective you instilled in me.
Like I literally have good intentional love in my life.
No more of what you fostered will prosper here.
titsay
yousharknotpass
janainaart
romaincrisis
areudirty
