the one where y/n laurier and will smith spoke back in college. it was a constant on and off, a constant back and fourth of feelings neither wanted to admit out of pure fear. eventually, the two couldn’t handle their feelings, and will said he was too focused on hockey to be with her. y/n blew up as pop musics new it girl, and will is the san jose sharks golden boy. and now? now she has a way of subtweeting the shark through her music.
chapters ⋆.𐙚 ̊
backstory, part one, part two, part three, part four, part five, part six, part seven, part eight, part nine, part ten, part eleven
playlists ݁ ˖Ი𐑼⋆
hurt my feelings soundtrack, hurt my feelings, the album
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
✓ Live Streaming✓ Interactive Chat✓ Private Shows✓ HD Quality
Anya is LIVE right now
FREE
Free to watch • No registration required • HD streaming
im not ready for hurt my feelings to end 😭 can we expect a sequel??? like a mack au or smth haha i cant let this go
absolutely!!!! this is 100% not the end of the hurt my feeling universe, i love everybody to the ends of the earth and im not ready to say goodbye yet 😭 some amazing girl asked about a lexi x mack smau next and i love that idea!! so maybe that, but im definitely gonna do an epilogue w reader and will! it’ll be about their relationship and stuff like that, so be on the lookout for that at some point!
hiii twinnies!! just wanted to come on here and say the final part of hurt my feelings will be out this weekend
but i also wanna fangirl for a second!!! i’ve been a diehard sturniolo triplets fan since 2021, and matt publishing his book is so unbelievably unreal to me!!! so forever proud of that boy and everything he’s accomplished over the years. okay, just wanted to say that cause i needed it out into the universe! you can never take the sturniolo out of a girl im sooooo convinced
promise you guys will have the next chapter soon 🤍
GIRL i missed you!!!! Is everything okay? How are you??🤍🤍
I MISSED U MORE!!!! i’m okay, life has just been hitting me crazy style. schools been busy, i just got another surgery on my toe (rip), my ex has decided to remerge (ew), but im back!!! pinky promise 🤍
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
✓ Live Streaming✓ Interactive Chat✓ Private Shows✓ HD Quality
Anya is LIVE right now
FREE
Free to watch • No registration required • HD streaming
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
✓ Live Streaming✓ Interactive Chat✓ Private Shows✓ HD Quality
Anya is LIVE right now
FREE
Free to watch • No registration required • HD streaming
an: she's hereee! here's part two of the previous chapter, ignore any mistakes even though i've reread this a million times, and my sincerest apologies if this is absolute ass 😭 enjoyy!!
summary: y/n and will finally see each other after two years. feelings fly, the truth is revealed, and the two realize the true extent of their feelings.
wc: 2.4k
part one
fear wasn’t something y/n felt, it was something she wasn’t familiar with.
through sold out stadiums, headlining coachella, stagecoach, fear wasn’t something she felt. right now, though? knowing that in just a few seconds will would be knocking on her door after almost two years of not seeing him? fear was just about all she felt.
every night for the last two years, just like clockwork, the idea plagued her mind. what would it be like when she saw him again? would it be normal? would he still be the same boy she fell in love with? maybe he was taller, maybe his hair got darker. every single situation had played through her head at least once.
yet nothing quite prepared her for the real thing.
the whole plane ride from argentina to california was spent thinking. not about her new single she planned on releasing, not what she’d have for breakfast. not even if she’d made sure she had all of her luggage, but instead it was what she was going to do when she saw him, and as she paced her apartment back in california, that thought plagued her mind. she’d finally forced herself to sit on the couch, but the nervous bounce of her leg gave away how quickly her mind was working.
will, though? not much better.
he wasn’t his usual self during practice, couldn’t skate as quickly as he usually did, hit the crossbar instead of the back of the net more than he’d like to admit. everyday since that night he ended things, he regretted it. to him it felt like life just wasn’t right. it was, though. he was playing in the nhl, had the best group of people around him, better than he could’ve asked for, but the one person he needed by his side wasn’t there.
she wasn’t there because he’d left her and his heart back in boston.
the thought of seeing her was both terrifying and comforting. terrifying because of the what if’s. what if he’d spent the last two years of his life begging the universe for a second chance, and by the end of it all, it didn’t work again. comforting because for the first time in what felt like a lifetime, he got to see his girl. she didn’t know the affect she still had on him, how much she meant to him even after all these years. he wasn’t exactly sure of it either, but sometimes the reminder kicked him square in the chest and knocked the wind right out of him.
as he stood at the front door of her penthouse apartment, he swallowed back the fear that had settled deep in his chest. this was just y/n. the girl he spent everyday with for almost three years, the girl he’d wanted since he said goodbye.
and it was only with that reminder that his knuckles rapped against the wood of the door.
the sound of the knock was a reminder of what was really happening, and she had to wipe her sweaty hands across the fabric of her jeans to even be able to open the front door. she inhaled a deep breath, closing her eyes for a moment to regain any sense of normalcy. her feet moved faster than her mind could, and she almost stopped for a moment so she didn’t seem desperate.
was it normal to open the door less than ten seconds after someone knocked? she couldn’t remember, but right now, she didn’t care. as soon as the door opened and she was met with the sight of him, she almost let out a sigh of relief, but she’d rehearsed, and making a loud noise was not apart of her plan. instead, without thinking too much about it, she smiled.
will wasn’t sure what he was feeling. terror, comfort, happiness, anxiety, maybe all of it, but as soon as the door opened and he was met with her familiar blue eyes, he wasn’t sure he felt much of anything anymore. it was almost like his brain just stopped.
god, she was gorgeous.
“hey.” her voice came out a bit smaller than she’d hoped for, but will was right there behind her.
“hi.” he smiled, that same stupid, dopey smile he’d reserved just for her all of those years ago. don’t think she missed that slow blink, either.
she didn’t respond yet, rather just looked at him. not an awkward glance over, just a soft, quiet stare that didn’t strike either of them as uncomfortable. it took a second for y/n to remember how to be a good host, because someone didn’t just leave their guest standing in the door.
“come in." she stepped away from the door, giving him more than enough room to step in.
the conversation flowed easily. it always did between the two of them. when silence filled the air it wasn’t awkward, rather comforting and familiar. even after all those years apart, deep down they were still the same people. the girl who fell in love with boston colleges hockey prodigy, the boy who fell in love with the girl who had the prettiest blue eyes and annoyingly perfect hair. their conversations were familiar. hockey, tour, life. but just like always, they got comfortable. comfortable enough for will to finally tell her the truth. what had killed him since the day he left.
“you know,” he spoke, breaking the comforting silence.
y/n looked over at him, leaning her arm against the back of the couch, cheek in her palm. she didn’t say anything, she didn’t need to for will to know she was listening.
“remember what i said? on the phone the other day?” he asked, and he didn’t mean for his voice to sound as shaky as it did.
she nodded, subconsciously tilting her body towards his. “yeah. about… the truth? right?”
he nodded, tongue darting out to wet his dry lips. he’d been through this scenario in his head one too many times. what he’d say, how he’d say it, if he’d dump the whole truth on her or only tell her bits and pieces, but when she was looking at him like that, eyes familiar and warm, he couldn’t hide anything from her. he’d forgotten she had that affect on him.
his nerves were written all over him. in the way his hands seemed a little too restless, his slow blinks turned a bit too fast, and that slight blush to his cheeks that he only got when he was nervous or embarrassed.
“i’m sorry.” was the first thing that came out of his mouth. he needed her to know he was sorry, that he regretted everything. more than anything, she needed an apology. “i’m sorry for the way that i left. you didn’t deserve that. nobody does but… not you. especially not you.”
an apology wasn’t something she was expecting. not because she didn’t think he'd apologize, but rather because she just never really thought about it. things happened, life moved on. she swallowed thickly, shaking her head just slightly. “i’m not upset with you, will.” she said gently. “i just want to understand, you know?”
he knew she needed the truth, and as terrifying as it was, it needed to be said. “i know,” he spoke softly. “i know, and that’s why i need to tell you properly.”
he took a breath, hoping that in someway the breath would say what he needed to say for him. repeating the truth in his head over and over again was one thing, but saying it out loud solidified the truth, his feelings, and that was the scariest part.
“i didn’t leave because i didn’t care.” he said. “it was the opposite, actually. i think i cared too much.”
her eyes searched his, but she wasn’t sure what she was looking for. maybe she was looking for any hint of a lie, or maybe she just couldn’t seem to keep her eyes off of him. she was sure it was the ladder.
the breath he let out was heavy, heavy with the words about to leave his lips. “i was in love with you.” he continued, eyes flickering up to meet hers for a second before dropping again. “like… completely. and it scared me more than anything ever has.”
there was no hesitation in his words. he didn’t try to hide his feelings anymore. he couldn’t.
“i’d spent my whole life working towards hockey.” he said. “everything i did, every decision i made, it all led to that. and then you came into my life and… you mattered just as much. maybe more… a lot more.”
his voice faltered slightly, like even admitting it now still overwhelmed him.
“and i didn’t know how to handle that.” he admitted. “i didn’t know how to be good at both. i didn’t know how to not… mess it up.”
she wasn’t sure how to react. part of her wanted to cry, because she just wished that he’d told her the truth earlier on. but another part of her almost felt relief, like the truth was finally out, she knew how he felt. she inhaled a shaky breath through her nose, and her gaze softened, something almost fond in it.
“you thought you’d lose one or the other.” she said quietly.
“yeah.” he nodded. “and i couldn’t risk losing hockey. but i also couldn’t—” he swallowed, his voice cracking slightly at the thought of his next words.
“i couldn’t stand the idea of hurting you because i wasn’t enough. or because i got too distracted, or too busy, or… anything.”
he shook his head slightly, because he was frustrated with himself even now. he couldn’t understand why he’d thought leaving was the right option. how he’d let himself lose her over the fear of not being enough.
“so i did the worst possible thing instead.” he said softly.
“i left before i could mess it up.”
she didn’t know what to say. what do you say when someone drops the truth like this? she wanted to tell him the truth too, but she couldn’t. she couldn’t tell him that losing him killed her everyday, that he was always her first thought after waking up, that she still loved him. “will…”
“i know,” he rushed out, almost panicked that she might think he was justifying it. “i know it doesn’t make it right. it doesn’t. it never did, and i— i think about it all the time, how i should’ve just stayed and tried, how i should’ve talked to you instead of deciding everything on my own, i owed that to you.”
his voice cracked, just barely, but it showed her the ache he still felt without saying it outright.
“i regret it. every single day.”
those words hung heavy in the air around them. it was honest, he didn’t try to sugar coat it. he regretted it, he had since the day he left, and she needed to know that. he owed it to her.
her expression didn’t harden, it softened even more, if anything. like hearing that didn’t hurt her, it just made her understand him better. because it did. she had the truth now, and though it had haunted her for years, she knew the reason, the real reason, and somehow that made it hurt less.
she wasn’t thinking when she made her next move, but when did she really think around him? she couldn’t, nor when there was this invisible magnetic force between them.
her eyes fell to his hands in his lap, watching the way he picked mindlessly at his nails, something he did when he was nervous, something she noticed before big games, before he told her something he was all anxious about. she’d never forgotten his tells, and maybe that’s why her hand landed on his, her thumb brushing softly against his knuckles.
“you don’t have to punish yourself for leaving.” she spoke softly, almost reverent.
will almost forgot what he was going to say next when he felt his hand on hers. it was familiar, it was them. it reminded him of the way he used to run cold, and her warm hand would always find his. whether it was just them in their dorms, after a game when his hands were red from the cold of the ice. he remembered, and it seemed to hurt more than he’d thought it would.
“i’m not trying to punish myself.” he replied quietly, almost like he was trying to believe himself. “i just… i hate that i hurt you. that’s the part i can’t let go of.”
he looked down at their hands, and before he could think too long about it, fear if she’d pull away or tell him to leave, he laced his fingers with hers.
she didn’t miss it, and in a way it grounded them both. that’s why she squeezed his hand gently.
“i mean, yeah, you hurt me but, i mean, i don’t resent you for that. you just confused me for a bit and that’s… that’s okay. because i know the truth now, and i don't hate you for what you did.”
he let out a shaky breath, something like relief breaking through. “still,” he said, softer now. “you deserved better than how i left. you deserved an explanation. you deserved a chance to decide what we could’ve been.”
breanna nodded slightly. “maybe. but you weren’t ready to give that then.” and it was the truth. nineteen year old her did not think the same way she did now, and now she knew that was the case with will too. and that was okay.
“no.” he admitted. “i wasn’t.” than a small, lingering pause. like every word that left his lips since the beginning of this confession terrified him, and they did. the truth had always scared him, and now he was telling her.
and then, quieter, “but i am now.”
she studied him for a moment, like she was really seeing him, maybe even seeing through him. she saw every bit of sincerity, every ounce of regret he wasn’t trying to hide.
his words hung heavy in the already stuffy air around them. it wasn’t awkward, not uncomfortable, just heavy with the realization that even after all of these years, they still felt the same.
“me too.”
and this time, the truth didn’t feel like something painful or unfinished.
it felt like a promise, a promise to never let each other go again.
it felt like something that, even after everything, still held them together in the softest way.
the one where y/n laurier and will smith spoke back in college. it was a constant on and off, a constant back and fourth of feelings neither wanted to admit out of pure fear. eventually, the two couldn’t handle their feelings, and will said he was too focused on hockey to be with her. y/n blew up as pop musics new it girl, and will is the san jose sharks golden boy. and now? now she has a way of subtweeting the shark through her music.
an / hi guys!!! okay, so this is the chapter that’s split into two parts. this chapter is a lot shorter than the usual chapters because there’s a whole lotta reading you gotta do with the blurb, but i hope you enjoy! i don’t really write so it may be ass, but please give me some grace 😭
part two
october 1st, 2025.
ynlaurier
liked by _willsmith2, lexiwhite and 1.2m others
ynlaurier hurt my feelings tour is officially over and i am the biggest sappy mess walking the earth today :( i cannot even begin to explain the love ive felt throughout this entire experience, and i owe every single one of you my life for changing my life in ways i never thought were possible. to everyone who showed up, streamed the album, showed their support, i love you, and ill never ever forget these few months. i’ll be back soon, i promise 🪽
view all 20k comments
fan1 i’m so depression
fan2 thank u for giving us the best album in the world
fan3 we’re so proud of u i hope u know that
fan4 thank you for everything, take alllll the time u need after this run
fan5 hurt my feelings changed my life thank u twin
fan6 nothing will ever amount to watching every show on a shitty tiktok livestream
lexiwhite ugh my baby i love you
_willsmith2 Can’t even put into words how proud I am ❤️
→ fan7 @_willsmith2 MY FUCKING PARENTS BRO 😭😭
_willsmith2
liked by ynlaurier, mackcelebrini and 167k others
_willsmith2 Pre season
view all 2k comments
fan1 sharks are 2-0 in the pre season does this mean something guys
fan2 will smith hockey save us
fan3 him n mack saving hockey one franchise at a time
fan4 fresh prince of san jose iktr
fan5 ANOTHER Y/N LIKE LETS GOOOO
fan6 hi can u score a goal tonight pls and thanks so much
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
✓ Live Streaming✓ Interactive Chat✓ Private Shows✓ HD Quality
Anya is LIVE right now
FREE
Free to watch • No registration required • HD streaming
the one where y/n laurier and will smith spoke back in college. it was a constant on and off, a constant back and fourth of feelings neither wanted to admit out of pure fear. eventually, the two couldn’t handle their feelings, and will said he was too focused on hockey to be with her. y/n blew up as pop musics new it girl, and will is the san jose sharks golden boy. and now? now she has a way of subtweeting the shark through her music.
an / hiii! oh my god i am so sorry this took so long to get out, I've been in such a slump its insane. also guys pls ignore that there's no dividers this chapter i hit the photo limit 😭 but! she's out, will and y/n are back, and i hope you enjoy! the next part may take a little bit to come out as im finishing the writing part of it cause its gonna be two parts, but!!! it shouldn't be more than like 2/3 days, maybe less cause im gonna write some more after i post this. okay, happy reading, i love u guys!!! (also let’s ignore in the last text w mack i didn’t delete the ‘i know’ that will texted from mack’s side 😐)
the next morning.
will and mack.
ynlaurier
liked by _willsmith2, lexiwhite and 1m others
ynlaurier argentina you are soooo beautiful, thank you for one of the best shows so far! 🤍🤍🤍
view all 20k comments
fan1 something was in the air tonight i’ve never seen this girl so happy before
fan2 prettiest girl to ever walk the earth
fan3 something fishy’s goin on…
fan4 HELLOOO GORGEOUS
fan5 as someone who was there tonight she was so happy it was so cutie
fan6 purple is ur color
fan7 mommyyyy
lexiwhite mama
_willsmith2 Do you happen to live on pretty girl avenue?
→ fan8 @_willsmith2 IM SO SORRY, WHAT???
twitter.
_willsmith2
liked by ynlaurier, mackcelebrini and 300k others
_willsmith2 @redbullusa
view all 7k comment
fan1 like that’s my man thank yeww
fan2 everyone’s favorite redbull athlete
fan3 since ur a redbull athlete does that mean ur gonna do backflips on their account….
fan4 dada
fan5 helloo beautiful
fan6 loving these scraps will thank u
mackcelebrini Hi daddy
→ _willsmith2 @mackcelebrini Can you actually shut up
ynlaurier redbull gives you wingsss
→ fan7 @ynlaurier get ur man back bro
will and y/n.
september 28th, 2025.
ynlaurier
liked by _willsmith2, lexiwhite and 1m others
ynlaurier i just got nominated for a grammy???? hello???? sorry, being sappy on main for a second! this is the most insane thing ever, and i cannot thank you guys enough for loving this album, for loving me throughout the hardships i’d felt while writing, performing. you guys are my everything, and whatever happens, this grammy is for you 🤍
view all 30k comments
fan1 SO PROUD OF U BABYY
fan2 i hope u know hurt my feelings means the world to us
fan3 she just gets bigger and better baby
fan4 im crying you deserve this so bad
fan5 y/n grammy sweep iktr
fan6 everyone on three say thank you will smith
fan7 nobody deserves this more than you do pretty
_willsmith2 Proud of you Sunshine. You deserve this a million times over ❤️
lexiwhite my baby 😭😭😭
twitter.
instagram stories / y/n and will.
_willsmith2
liked by ynlaurier, mackcelebrini and 200k others
_willsmith2 One more
view all 6k comments
fan1 god we’re being fed so good this offseason
fan2 do unspeakable things to me thanks!
fan3 number one macklin celebrity dick rider posted again guys
fan4 go play hockey loser
fan5 FIRST PICTURE HELLOOO
fan6 mm yummy
mackcelebrini Cutie
mackcelebrini Come home
fan7 why does mack have to embarrass himself in the comments every time will posts
