a collection of my writing.

you are a map from an box on my attic shelf: illegible on dirt road paths i departed blind on a sailors journey to a sea’s hurricane, your sirens pulling me into the collapsing waves loving you is a carousel ceasing only when i can feel your rib cage under my jaw loving you is the best map i have traveled upon

Your favorite book’s pages can be re-read two-hundred times and every word will only gain meaning to you. But eventually, the book is going to wear. The pages are going to start to fall out and the quote that saved your life will fade off from sticky fingers and coffee spills. I realize now that you were a lot like my favorite book. It does not matter how much something means to you. They can still leave, no matter how much you love them. Once they’re gone, they can’t come back.

i. Two years is only a mere ripple in the lifetime of my ocean. But, even a ripple can cause a typhoon if a butterfly flutters its wings at the right time. ii. You were the golden monarch that set off the storm. You were the rip tide that caused the sea to sway and swallowed me whole. iii. You told me once that my back was long enough for me to be a perfect swimmer, but you never taught me how. I have spent the last 3 weeks as an anchor searching for air. iv. The causalities are exposed when I dust off a piece of sand and find your t-shirt in the corner. ‘SOS’ bottles are filled with letters you wrote me when you loved me. Tomorrow’s headline reads ‘there were no survivors’.

I printed out your 'jealous of the moon' poem over a year ago and I have it placed in random parts of my room to find and read and fall in love with all over again I even carry it around in my purse a lot and I just love that poem so much thank you for writing it

I've been writing on my walls in my room in pencil every time I'm triggered to cut. Most times I look up stuff to copy so I'm distracted. Most of the writing on my wall is yours. Thank you for being there with your lovely words, they've saved me more times than I can count.

Did you write the "I am jealous of the moon.." because fuck.. that's beautiful.. It's my lock screen on my phone so I can see it every day..

Your blog is amazing! Just saying! (: