dream impossible things.

THIS MAKES ME FEEL SO OLD

@taylorswift  I’m 22 now and a lot has changed in my life. I’ve made new friends, I’ve fallen out of touch with friends I swore I would be close with together. I’ve experienced more loss than I thought my heart could handle. I’ve started finding myself. I’ve stopped singing, but my instruments are still my best friends. I still find sharks to be the most amazing animals on this entire planet. I don’t sing at concerts, I didn’t when I was 16 either, and I’ve given up on a lot of the dreams this 11 year old me had. But I’ve built new dreams. I’ve changed career paths more times than I’m willing to admit. I’m in my last year of university en route to becoming a teacher, and yet my printing is  still as sloppy as it was then. Then again, you’ve changed too. 

@taylorswift I turn 24 in a few months. The thought is TERRIFYING to me. Last year I graduated university, getting two degrees in 5 years at the top 5% of my class for both programs. I still don’t have a job tho (@ontario school boards, hire me) which is even more terrifying than the whole age thing. Besides that, I feel like time is moving so fast, and things around me are changing so fast. I’ve changed. Everything I have ever known is changing. My love for music that makes me feel all sorts of emotions has stayed the same. Thank you for making that a constant. 11 year old me had no clue how much of an impact you would have on my life. But here I am, almost 13 years later, getting ready to celebrate a new era with you again. Only this time, I can spell guitar properly. Well, most of the time. 

@taylorswift​ I’m newly 24. The thought still scares me. I don’t fair well with change or the thought of growing older, but that’s a conversation for another day (anyone have a good therapist they want to recommend??????). I got a job at my dream school board as a supply teacher to start. Time is still moving far too fast. It feels like last year I was logging onto tumblr for Speak Now’s release. Lover comes out at midnight and I still feel like that giddy little girl on christmas eve. Thank you for being that constant. Thank you for bringing the most amazing people into my life. Thank you for never giving up on your dreams and letting me grow up with you. Happy Lover release night!!!!!

@taylorswift I turned 25 today and I’m beginning to wonder if these new numbers will ever be less scary. I haven’t worked in over 5 months because of this pandemic, and don’t know when I will again but I’m glad I have a job I miss. Sharks are still my favourite animal and I’ve been beyond stoked that Shark week lands on my birthday this year. I sat by a river and listened to folklore today just being all in my feels-what an amazing album. I’m still as proud of you and your art now as I was at 11. You still shine as bright to me. 

Realizing that the 16-year old sundress and cowboy boots wearing, country-accent bearing, curly haired little girl from myspace is now 25 and DOMINATING the entire world