World Of Jonerys

Start weight: 191lbs

Current weight: 182lbs

Start Weight - 191.8lbs

Current Weight - 191.8lbs

Hello friend!

Today is September 1st, and I've decided, over the course of a few days, that I want to change some thing's about me.

I won't lie, this isn't the first time I've tried to changes.

I've honestly lost count.

But, this is the only time I've made it public (in a sense). And I feel like something about having someone else know, makes it feel more... motivating.

I'm 20, and I feel like I'm in a weird grey area of my life. Like, I'm in transition, but I don't yet know what I'm transitioning into.

I even mess up so much over my age! Some times I forgot I'm a legal adult and I keep thinking I'm still a teenager.

But now, I'm faced with the approaching opportunity of changing my life. My sister wants to move out and get a place together, me and her and her boyfriend (who's practically like a brother in law to me already.) And while I'm so excited and nervous, I also see an opportunity to live a new life, be a new me. Maybe after this transition in life, I'll finally feel complete.

I want to get my first job, my license and my own car. But the one thing I want to change the most about myself in this transition, is my weight.

Over a year ago, I got into a deep depression and end up gaining 46 pounds. I used to weigh 145lbs and was my happiest after struggling for years with my weight, and now I'm 191lbs. And I couldn't be sadder...

Now, I want to reach my old goal and finish everything on my list of things to do before I move.

To this day, I still think about when I was at my smallest weight. It was all because of a trip we were going to take. It was to my aunt's wedding in San Diego, California, and I wanted to lose weight for the trip itself. I went to the gym nearly every day for months (March to June, to be exact) and I definitely saw the results!

I can still remember the day I was packing, that night we were going to head out for the long drive, so I was getting my suitcase ready. My sister and her boyfriend were on the couch watching TV, when I walked by to grab something from the restroom, she called out to be saying I was looking really good lately, and I couldn't be happier. I remember blushing and even Spencer, her boyfriend, agreed. (Which was nice but also a little weird) In California I was so happy. Even weeks after we came back.

If I could, I would live through June and July of 2018 forever. That was honestly my happiest time.

I don't expect you to stick around for the full journey. Truthfully, I'm not even sure anyone's reading this right now. I could be writing to no one. But I guess I just need to get my thoughts out. Otherwise, they'll stay with me forever.

So, I guess that's it.

His name is Gizmo, he’s a nine month old toy poodle. (We got both him and his brother Teddy. The two are so close and it’s absolutely adorable.)

Unfortunately, we’ve recently found out Gizmo has a “cherry eye” and due to other finances we can’t afford his surgery. But he’s so much a part of the family, giving up on him isn’t an option. We can’t just toss him aside, we won’t, both him and Teddy already made a home here.

Please, if there’s anything, ANYTHING, that you can contribute it would absolutely mean the world.

With Kylo Ren reaching out to Rey. And her being utterly confused and unsure of what to do. But then Rian throws this at me(!!!!):