inferno

—be patient and tough; someday this pain will be useful to you

you and i drink the poison from the same vine

oh i love it and i hate it at the same time,

hiding all of our sins from the daylight

from the daylight, running from the daylight”

in the late hours of the night, time stops. it hangs in the air, holding all of the day's sorrows in its hands. it is atlas, bearing the weight of the world.

sound stops too. everything becomes deafened until all i can hear is the telltale beat of the drum that reminds me that i am still alive. i hold my breath in fear of disturbing the stillness.

it is as though i am caught between worlds. for in these hours, i become completely transparent. i am a ghost, half-alive, but barely dead. i exist merely to pass by others, never permitted to stay for long.

i long to feel. you came along and hollowed out my soul, leaving nothing behind but an empty shell. all i know is sorrow. he is an ever-present beast, lurking in the shadows.

will i escape this torment? or will i be doomed to bear the weight of my sorrows, disintegrating beneath their burden.

you’ll be the saddest part of me

a part of me that will never be mine

it’s obvious

tonight is gonna be the loneliest

you’re still the oxygen i breathe

i see your face when i close my eyes

it’s torturous

tonight is gonna be the loneliest