womackave

Through meditation and healing, you get your life back. You feel gratitude, joy, creativity, and even find yourself being productive without effort. It will make you more present in your life, which will eradicate your needless suffering through the mind. You’ll feel the sun on your back, notice the dappled light streaming through the trees, shiver at the sound of laughter. You’ll realize how much of your life you spent in fight or flight, not living, but surviving. Your relationships will heal, your mind will heal, your nervous system will heal. You will become the best version of yourself and never live on autopilot again.

let them walk away. let them choose something or someone else. let them reveal to you who they are. let go of the need to control, of the need to create a certain outcome. it's a false sense of security. the truth and the clarity you're looking for lies in your willingness to let them be who they are and to sit back and observe. that's it. that's when you make your decisions and your plans. because when you do this, you'll have all the answers, even if they're painful.

What if I told you your twin flame is YOU? The feeling you're searching for, the love you feel that you've lost was never yours in the first place. It was a deep bond, yes, and it was special, but not in the way you thought. It was a reflection of YOU. It was a lesson learned. And if you take anything from this, let it be that the happiness, the joy, the love, that you want so badly to feel again (because the loss and the pain is an abyss) is in YOU. You can cultivate those feelings. You need to cultivate those feelings, because that is freedom. Never again will you let your spirit and your love be shredded by outside circumstances, when you know that it's available from within. And from this irony, you will find that a connection far better than you could've fathomed will find it's way to you, and you will be better for it.

I'll always remind myself of those words when I catch myself making excuses for someone's behavior or I feel I'm in too deep. I can do hard things!!

No one talks of the pain of a friendship break-up. Like a real relationship, it can explode in your face and end with venom-laced words- or it can slowly corrode, and by the end neither can point to one thing that caused it. You grew together, side by side, but time passed and yielded a different path. The space in-between grew so slowly you looked up and there was an arm's length, then an ocean. All the same, the pain is real and stark. You had shared things- sacred songs, belly laughs, hidden grief, and even your favorite pair of heels. And time passes and you heal alongside the wound of their absence but there are moments in your years that are dedicated to them. And no matter the ending, there's always only love that echoes sadness.

I swore id never be this Healed until i was heavy with love So what is this?

(a promise to myself) 

Not everyone will like you. You’ll feel the sting of rejection, the ache of not being what they wanted or preferred. But to lock yourself away as to not feeling anything? To refuse to put yourself in a position to get hurt or take the plunge for fear of not being enough? You’re closing yourself off to more than just another soul. Think of the lessons they could teach you. The things that you’ll learn about yourself that you didn’t know before. Each time, you’ll learn forgiveness and compassion for yourself because the someone not reciprocating the way you feel is never a reflection of you. You get to learn exactly what you want and how you want to be treated and to never settle for anything less than that. So let them walk away and feel nothing but gratitude because each time it’s never a loss, you have enough love to fill castles, dark rooms, and lonely homes. You’ll never need anyone else for that. 

I haven’t felt a deep love for someone in so long; it’s almost like I long for the hurt and heartache that came with it. The screaming in the car, crying in the dark. Looking out windows, sometimes even feeling empty. But that love & joy for someone; the kind that fills you up and etches itself to you right when you’re looking at them- I want to feel that again and this time for it to be right. The endless nights I said no, turned so many down because now I know what I want and what I won’t stand for. I found the love I needed in me and I’m ready for another to feel my love again. 

I remember her sitting in my car, hair disheveled and sticking to the sides of her face from the watershed and whispering to me that she’d never move on, not from this one. it cut far too deep and went on far too long. I held there in her car and told her that I know with everything in me there will not only be one more that comes along and devastates you, but multiple- maybe even a little bit more each time. but then you’ll have that one that will come along and change everything you ever thought you know, change the way you want to be touched, to be loved, even change it’s meaning- and you won’t regret the ones before, you’ll be thankful

always

the darkest hours but the brightest places 

my twin flame 

the words and pictures seem to flow out of me and I can’t tell if it’s your absence  or the drinks but I have my days  I think of her but it doesn’t hurt I just want to know what she’s like  does she fit you right?  maybe you gave me these words  my muse  maybe I’ll be okay if you don’t come back  like I think you will  but I quite like my mind now;  it’s freedom the color, the life  you lit the spark  but I drew the flames