permanent hiatus.

this is my official farewell post. i tried giving the indie community another go, after my hiatus, but it’s become obvious to me that it’s time to call it quits. i may come back in a few weeks or months time, who knows, but for the time being i’ll solely write on discord. feel free to message me for my id if you’re interested to get some threads going. thank you all for putting up w my messy self ❤️❤️.

is he okay? not in the slightest. his cheeks are a bright red color and as the image of a shirtless gavin comes back to the forefront of his mind, blood rushes down his body. he’s in more trouble than he imagined. now that he’s somewhat been forced to accept reality: the feelings that he blamed on years of affection deprivation are very much not that and very much because his best friend stole his heart without siwoo noticing until it was too late. it scares him, so much so that lust is swiftly replaced by dread and his stomach turns. if gavin ever noticed, he would lose the only person that means something to him. the only person that’s ever showed him genuine care. siwoo can’t live without gavin. he leans against the sink, taking deep breaths to keep the growing anxiety as well as tears welling up in his eyes at bay. “i’m fine,” the strain in his voice tells a different story but he can’t tell gavin the truth. in fact, then and there, he makes a promise to himself to never ever, tell the other about his feelings. “i feel a little cold so i’m gonna take a shower then join you to clean the kitchen.” he tells him. “can you get me some dry clothes? leave them in front of the door, i’ll get them.”

the pout on his lips deepens with each second. has it only been five days? it felt like an eternity to orion. then again, it isn’t often that the two separate for longer than a couple of hours. “me, miss you? absolutely not.” he’s fooling absolutely no one. in spite of the mood he’s in, because he missed the other dearly, he’s happy that arther had fun with his friend. “that said, you’re not allowed to leave me ever again.”

this is an official semi-hiatus notice. it’s been a long time coming and i’ve been trying to put it off for a while but i need to take a step back for some time to get my motivation to write & muse back. i apologize to anyone waiting for a reply and thank you for being patient with me. i’ll be around now and then to work on drafts and i’m available on discord if you’d like to keep in touch in the meantime. 

tagged by: @multiplythatbyinfinity​​ (thank you!) tagging: @spriingday​​ (lysander, silver, cas), @milkiwaes​​ (bandit & finley), @forcynefin​​ (arther), @moonwvlkers​​ (madison), @whatcvcr​​ (evie, cain & soyou), @ncnversations​​ (tai), @cherrygyus​​ (gavin) & anyone else who would like to do it !