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- i’m 23 years old / female

- i’ve been in the SPN fandom since 2016 and it continues to take over my brain and my life more than half the time but oh well what can u do

- i ship wincest, they’re both my babies 🥺 i need wincest moots so pls interact if you want

- i hate mary winchester with a passion but that’s a conversation for another time

- my hobbies include editing, writing (i do have an ao3 account where i’ve written wincest but i haven’t posted a fic in a while), travelling, reading and thinking obsessively about things i like

they don’t just love each other—they need each other. it’s not even about choice anymore, it’s just how they are. they’re literally yin and yang, built to complement each other in every way. where one pushes, the other pulls. where one breaks, the other holds. it’s not even something they control, it’s just in their bones. instinctual. inevitable. and the way they orbit each other? always pulling back no matter how far they’re thrown? it’s wild. there’s this constant, quiet tension—not just emotional, but physical. like even when they’re just standing next to each other, there’s this unspoken charge in the air. that kind of attraction that’s so deep it feels older than language. something inherent. they don’t know how to be whole without the other there.

What are your summertime Sam and Dean heandcanons or ideas? Doesn't even have to be wincest specific just what do you think of with them and the season?

Thanks! 😘

ughh, i love this ask! thank you for making me think about summer and the winchesters <3

i like to think of summer as this little soft, golden bubble of peace in sam and dean's minds—maybe one of the only peaceful things they ever had.

dean 100% used to take sam to get ice cream when it was too hot to do anything else, and he’d always let sam pick the flavor even if it was something weird like bubblegum or rainbow swirl. and fairs?? they were everything. dean would drag sam from booth to booth, determined to win him something—like those stupid giant stuffed animals or a plastic sword—and he’d get all cocky about it too, like “watch this, sammy,” before absolutely rigging the game just to see sam laugh.

and swimming—dean totally taught sam how to swim in some random lake or sketchy motel pool, holding him up and pretending to be a serious swim instructor while sam was flailing and yelling. and when the heat was too much and sleep just wasn’t happening, they’d sneak outside and lie on the roof of the car or in the grass, stargazing in that warm, sticky silence. just the crickets, the soft breeze, and the stars above them. it was the one time the world actually felt quiet.

they didn’t do all that stuff anymore as adults—life just got too heavy. too much end-of-the-world bullshit, too many losses. but the memories stuck. summer always brings that ache, that nostalgia. those long, lazy days where they didn’t have to worry about school or hunting or anything. just hot air, cold drinks, and that endless stretch of time while they waited for john to come back and uproot their lives again.

and okay—one of my favorite headcanons: sneaking into the motel pool at night. everything’s still and quiet except for the water lapping gently, the glow of the pool lights, and maybe a few fireflies blinking in the darkness. it’s warm but peaceful, and they’re both just there, suspended in the moment. and it’s so much—the heat, the quiet, the closeness—that they don’t even think, they just kiss. like it was inevitable. like summer itself pulled them together.

we got ruby in season 4 straight up asking if they’re together?? like girl said that with her chest. jody in season 10 telling them they have something special—and you know she meant it in a “wtf is this intensity” kinda way, not just “aww sibling love.” crowley dropping that line about his butler having heard things?? pls. what was he hearing exactly?????? lisa saying their bond is the most tangled-up thing she’s ever seen? bffr. zachariah literally calling them erotically codependent??? that’s not a casual observation, that’s someone who sat down and analyzed it. balthazar asking if dean stole any kisses while sam was unconscious—LIKE??? that wasn’t a throwaway line, that was a callout. and then the reaper in s15 saying she’s seen and heard things?? nah. no way she meant that platonically.

and even cas. when dean’s like “you think sam wants a divorce?” and he’s just deadpan like “it’d take more than that for sam to walk away.” like. that man has seen it all and he’s still not even surprised by the mess they are.

you’re telling me they saw these two grown-ass men—late 30s, still attached at the hip, communicating in that silent eye-language, backing each other up like no one else exists—and didn’t go “wtf is this???” like. come on. i fully believe there was at least one moment where mary looked at john and was like “they remind me of us,” and not in a sweet nostalgic way, but in a kinda “oh shit this is lowkey unhinged” way. like, they recognized that closeness, that ride or die, all-consuming energy and maybe had to stop for a second like… wait. this is kinda weird.

i totally see him, at some point, just laying it down and saying something like, “don’t forget who i am, dean. and who she is. there’s no competition here. i’m your brother.” like throwing the word “brother” around with so much weight behind it, like that one word says everything that needs to be said. it’s not even about possessiveness, it’s about certainty. like, this is what they are. no one else comes close.

and yeah, i do love a jealous!sam moment, but honestly? i don’t even think early seasons sam would get jealous like that. bc he’s so sure of his place. season 1–3 sam knows he’s the #1 in dean’s life, no matter what. he’s confident in that bond.

hi anon!! i love this ask actually, i didn't get something like this yet so thank you <3

okay so by “ice being officially broken” i’m assuming you mean like the episode where they finally say fuck it and just get together, and honestly i’ve got a couple answers to that bc it really depends on a bunch of different factors.

like in one version of things i can totally see them getting together after a near death experience—like something huge that shakes them up enough to just cross that line. or even in one of those moments where one of them is about to die, or already has. like i could 100% see it happening before dean’s deal comes due in 3x16, bc at that point what do they even have to lose anymore? or after sam dies in cold oak. or even before sam says yes to lucifer in 5x22—he still has control over his body then, and maybe he just wants to do one thing for him before lucifer takes over and he loses that agency.

but one of my absolute fave versions of this is actually in season 13, right after sam dies in that cave. dean is so wrecked. like devastated in a way that’s so raw and brutal. he’s lost sam so many times and this time it just hits different—he had to watch it happen, and it was violent and sudden and awful. and that’s when he really gets it. this is their life. nothing’s guaranteed. who the fuck cares what they do if it’s on their own terms? that moment of emotional weight, the closeness, the fact that it’s so shameless... ugh. it’s so good. that’s definitely one of my fav scenarios. it just hits. alsooo i could 100% see it going down right after 1x12 too. like that was their first real brush with death, right? their first big “oh shit this is real, we could actually lose each other” moment. sam’s so shaken, like visibly rattled that dean almost died, and it just hits him how close he came to losing him. so he just acts on instinct—grabs dean, kisses him, like hard, and then just kind of freezes, waiting for dean to freak out or push him away or something. just standing there like “okay. that happened. now what.” it’s raw and panicky and full of that early season intensity. like they don’t even know what they are yet, they just feel it and it comes out sideways.

okay but then i can totally see it happening super randomly too, and some of my fave eps for that would be 2x11, 4x14, and 6x12 (or honestly anything post-6x11 tbh). like playthings??? so peak. the vibes are insane. it’s already so loaded with tension and all the themes they’re playing with are like… right there. sam being a lil tipsy—but not enough to make it sketchy, just enough to loosen things up—and dean lowkey freaking out about it anyway, but they both still end up falling into bed like it was always gonna happen. like they didn’t even have a choice. it’s so messy but so right. then you’ve got 4x14 and sam finds out he’s dean’s siren?? like. come on. that would break something in him in the best way. suddenly it’s not just this unspoken thing anymore, it’s real, dean feels it too. and sam just snaps a little, confesses, bc if dean felt it even under some magical influence, it means it’s been there all along. and that’s all he needs. and then 6x12… oh my god. sam has his soul back. after all that time where dean was stuck with like, this hollow version of him. mannequin!sam was there physically but not really there. and now he’s back. his sammy. and dean just can’t take it. the relief, the emotions, the guilt, the need—it all just crashes in and he gives in. fucks everything away because he needs that closeness, needs to feel him again in every possible way. it’s raw. it’s desperate. it’s perfect.

sam + dean | teddy bear [melanie martinez]

you were comforting and quiet

and the morality? the fact that it’s “wrong”? honestly, that just adds another layer. there’s something so compelling about watching two people love each other so fiercely, so destructively, that they’d burn the whole world to keep each other. and the fact that they’re brothers—bound by blood, by history, by everything—just makes it that much more intense. there’s no escaping it. no clean lines. just chaos and devotion and love all tangled together. wincest just gives you every kind of love in one relationship. it’s romantic, it’s platonic, it’s familial, it’s obsessive. they’re soulmates, best friends, two soldiers fighting the same war, everything. it’s insane. it’s epic. and when you let yourself really feel it, when you stop trying to box it in or sanitize it, it hits you like nothing else.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/21877648 : "It was either he fucked one of these three people or he died. Easy, right? Unfortunately for him, one of them was his father, the second one was a poor, innocent victim, and the other one was the big brother for whom he had feelings he didn't want to think about."

https://archiveofourown.org/works/22320718 : "Dean Winchester's kind of a dick and can come across as harsh and tough as steel, aggressive and detached like he doesn't give a fuck what you think of him. You don't want to find yourself on his bad side though, that's for sure. Dean's a bad boy through and through. Except for when he's staring into Sam's eyes and you can see him practically melting."

https://archiveofourown.org/works/22653742 : "When Sam's dared to kiss some stranger at a party, Dean's not happy. At all."

https://archiveofourown.org/works/22716550 : "When Sam was only six months old, he had been cursed. The first person he kisses will forever be bound to him. No one can break that connection once it's formed. You can think of it as soulmates 2.0. Expect Sam doesn't think it's romantic or sweet at all. He doesn't consider himself lucky. Because one thing life on the road has taught him: there's never time to get to know someone enough to trust them and want a permanent bond with them. It just isn't. And now to top it off, his Dad wants this curse to be dealt with, so of course, John's gonna pair him off with the first hunter they encounter. Just great."