𝙠𝙞𝙨𝙨 𝙢𝙚 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚

i’m not actively looking for a relationship. i’m not passively doing so either. i’m good with being on my own. i’m okay with it, i don’t need another person to like, complete me or whatever because i’m already whole. i’m not desperately searching for that something in everyone i meet, but then again i’m not meeting anyone new. i’m here, i’m doing my thing, i’m focused on myself. but that gets lonely sometimes and i wish someone else would focus on me too. because sometimes i want to be seen, i want to be felt, i want to be loved. to be wanted, to be desired. and that’s a type of affection that we don’t get from friendships, not in that specific way at least. i want to be known, to have a safe space to talk and to listen, to have someone to share things with. inside jokes, fancy date nights, a simple walk, sunday lunches with my family. someone who’s interested in me and who shows it. someone who’s about me, a person to have a connection with. and of course i’d want to do the same to them. to know them, their signals, their comfort zones, the fucking song they listen to in the morning to get a jumpstart on their day. i wanna be someone they can turn to when they’re feeling whatever emotion they’re feeling. but i don’t wanna rush it, it’s not a thing for right now. it’s not something to be obsessing over and trying to make it happen, it’s just a desire. when it happens, it happened. it’s not an agenda, it’s just something that would be nice.

Imagine getting home after a long day and as soon as you see your partner, they see you too, and you watch their eyes light up as they stop whatever they’re doing to hug you tight.

your soulmate is someone who is committed to fixing things together, & doesn’t see breaking up as an option. they’re willing to have uncomfortable conversations, & are always dedicated to finding solutions that make you both feel loved, reassured, & respected in the relationship.

today i overheard a girl say "no, f*ck that. i will be lovely to everyone. maybe some people will remember they have a heart."