With Downcast Eyes

Nespring: literally meaning “the offspring of my sibling” from the old English roots “offspring” which is just ‘of spring’ and the Latin root “nepos” that both niece and nephew are derived from

Avaun: derived from the roots of both “aunt” and “uncle,” the anglo-French “aunte” and the Latin “avunculus”

His face. I watched his face. His jaw tightened as he forced more of his fingers inside of me. His eyes set hard, focused. His expression was searing hot. His sadistic resolve, the intensity of this exchange, felt holy. Blissful, immaculate pain, like the universe was just this current running through us.

Tired of Saying Mutually Beneficial?

Say you’re a traditionalist. Say you want a man to be the man in the relationship - the breadwinner, the provider.

In return you’re the loving, caring, beautiful, and all-around perfect woman. You’ll care for him, love him, and always be there. But for to you always be there, to always look beautiful, and be all-around perfect your man needs to provide for you - financially, emotionally, and of course physically (🙄🙄🙄).

Just because the guy isn’t technically a pedophile, doesn’t make him any less predatory. When you’re in your 20s you may not be a kid anymore, but you’re not fully developed as an adult either. You’re still vulnerable to predators who have the advantage of more experience and thus tools you don’t yet have, in addition to the other advantage of power imbalance due to gendered relations.

A man who wants to be your mentor, especially if he says he wants to “shape” you or anything similar, is a man who’s trying to turn you into his puppet, to make you “develop” (be molded) into the girl/woman that serves his pleasure, even if not directly sexual.

There’s predators who get off on the intellectual performance of the younger female objects of their obsessions. There’s predators who get off on your social development fitting their not-necessarily sexual fantasies. There’s predators who get off on the idea of taking a depressed girl and becoming her “savior”.

There’s people who get off to feet and fucking statues, you best believe there’s predators who get immense satisfaction from mental games against vulnerable girls/women even if they’re not (directly) sexual. And even if those things aren’t sexual at all to you, it will fuck you up. Because you’ll know or feel that you’re being used against your will, that you’re not being treated as a human, you’ll feel trapped, you’ll feel controlled, you’ll feel hopeless and disgusted with what he’s turning you into.

It’s about control, it’s about possession, it’s about ownership of who you are, it’s about having the perfect doll to play with.

It’s about you becoming mentally, emotionally, intellectually, socially dependent on them. It’s about a boost of their egos.

Ive been given a diamond bracelet by someone who I only knew by their D&D name.

Another guy gave me a birth stone necklace after I’d just had a break up and just couldn’t understand why I needed time

Ive come home from a late night of studying to find a guy sitting beside my apartment door at 11pm. He’d “been waiting for hours” and “just wanted to see me.” (I don’t have to tell you how scary it is to see a grown man in an empty hallway when you are all by yourself.)

Ive had a guy send me 1000+ text messages…which started as a conversation about cartoons, turned into a love confession, then turned into him calling me a bitch

Not to mention the ones with jungle fever whose wet dream is not only a “nerd girl” but an “exotic nerd girl.” (“exotic” is just a cute word for fetishizing women of color)