minor addictions

i’m watching myself go insane

“he’s cheating. he’s lying. he doesn’t love me. he’s wasting my time. he won’t even come over to my house or make me cum.”

i hate this. how much of this is real and how much is imagined? how much am i allowed to be concerned and how much do i trust the other person ?

i keep getting betrayed by compulsive liars and this isn’t helping whatsoever

i felt so secure with haley and i took all of that for granted. it didn’t feel exciting because it was so healthy. it wasn’t manipulative. it was fair.

and i want someone manipulative. who promises me big things and fails to deliver. who tells me they love me but doesn’t show it with their actions.

i keep falling in love with a ghost.

We are enjoying the of our liberal revolutions, and I'm taking ownership of my body and it abundant resources.

I'm smart and educated. Sexy and sharp. Confident with enough self-awareness.

You want someone who knows what they're doing. And likes it.

Foreign body, foreign mind. Let me take you to my world. You tell me what you want and I will work with you to make sure your needs are met - as well as mine.

I will respect your boundaries and explore freely as long as you treat me with the same respect. Although I prefer to be leading, I am very willing to be submissive to the right caretaker. If you can dominate me, please do. However, I prefer to let you relax and give you what you desire... though, be warned, teasing is my favorite turn-on.

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Other people: uh so boring

i sit here in pain because pain is what i know and enjoy

do i bring this to myself how to be perfect, a perfectioninst, people-pleaser, quiet whisperer

i love you im sorry its always the same  “I fucked up im too negative it’s too much”

and he hung up? I wonder about my conscious subconscious unconscious