dreamer™

It is currently 4:41 am and I am sobbing after watching call me by your name because I'll be damned if i don't get to live an epic love story that lasts. And I'm sitting here thinking if elio and Oliver didn't end up together what fucking chance do i have?

The biggest heartache is finding out your favorite performer/singer came to your city the year before you found out about them. it just hurts.

I hate lying to people that care about me. I hate saying nothing's up when I'm drowning. I'm fine is a mantra that people in my life hear. Or "it's chill". It's not chill. I'm not chill.

I made plans to stay at my friends house straight after school on Friday and now it's Thursday night and I'm laying in bed crying cause I really just don't wanna go. Fuck Monday me, you had too much faith in me.

Sarah j maas has thoroughly wrecked me with now 3 different series. and every time I finish a book, even though I've read it at least twice, I still get an empty feeling that wrecks me. And it's just her. No other author. What the fuck sarah?

am I the only one that hates nesta? and I completely understand that I haven't seen her POV and am prepared for my mind to completely change but- I can't picture me liking her. I don't know why. anyone else ?

singing at 4 in the morning and you're brother texting you to shut the fuck up is honestly my entire aesthetic right now.

are you ever sitting there, watching videos and your chest actually hurts, like physical pain,because of how in love you are with this person who will never ever know you exist

do you ever fall into a hole. like a hole that is filled with someone. like the next thing you know you're watching these videos and listening to these songs that speak to your soul and you are slowly falling in love. and you've spent almost 8 hours looking at this person in interviews and watching him interact with fans and you watch them sing and watch them be an amazing person. and you just. i dont know, fall in love with someone who you will never meet? and it hurts watching and listening to them because you truly have feelings for this person? yeah. 

LARRY STYLINSON HAS BEEN A THING FOR LEGIT OVER 5 YEARS AND OUT OF MILLIONS OF SHIPPERS HOW HAS NO ONE EVER GOTTEN A BODY LANGUAGE EXPERT TO SEE IF THEIR BODIES GIVE AWAY ANYTHING ABOUT THEIR RELATIONSHIP