Wise Crap

Not all the things we can fix, sometimes forgetting is much easier than fixation, I believe we should be accountable for our mistakes but when it’s all out of our hands and we are helpless about it at least for the meantime or even if it’s very time-consuming and energy-draining so let’s forget the fuck about it regardless of anything.

Always pop yourself up the top of your priorities list, nothing or no one should be above you cause no one would do the same for you putting you in the first place above themselves, and this is not a shame on them to point out, this is the norm, loving yourself is the best deed you could ever do to yourself and what’s much more important is to know how you can love yourself.

Many of us hurt ourselves instead of loving it, you may mistakenly believe you are doing the right thing for yourself but actually, you are not so you are better off stepping back whenever you feel like misbehaving with yourself cause you should fix the hurt others do to you not hurting yourself and then look for healing from your folks right then.

Not all the things we can fix, sometimes forgetting is much easier than fixation, I believe we should be accountable for our mistakes but when it’s all out of our hands and we are helpless about it at least for the meantime or even if it’s very time-consuming and energy-draining so let’s forget the fuck about it regardless of anything.

Always pop yourself up the top of your priorities list, nothing or no one should be above you cause no one would do the same for you putting you in the first place above themselves, and this is not a shame on them to point out, this is the norm, loving yourself is the best deed you could ever do to yourself and what’s much more important is to know how you can love yourself.

Many of us hurt ourselves instead of loving it, you may mistakenly believe you are doing the right thing for yourself but actually, you are not so you are better off stepping back whenever you feel like misbehaving with yourself cause you should fix the hurt others do to you not hurting yourself and then look for healing from your folks right then.

It’s more important than you could ever imagine not to intoxicate the good things you love doing, you may find yourself doing something regardless of its type or they way you do it, etc, but at a certain point of time you may accidentally sabotage it, you may be simply still doing it but it feels like nothing worth it in return.

What’s much more dangerously severe n regards to this point that you may start hating the things you used to love only because you do it the wrong way or with less passion than you used to do before or only out of sense of responsibility and commitment without your vivid soul that used to attractively get others engaged with your content without deliberate attention from you do to so even.

Therefore, don’t forcefully engage yourself to do something you used to love only due to a sense of duty or responsibility, cause you will start losing passion, inspiration, and enthusiasm, and I believe that if you reach this level, you’d better quit the whole thing cause It won’t be useful anymore or at least as useful as it used be before, and it will create a heavy burden on you instead of making you feel much more peaceful or comfortable like you always used to feel before.

It’s very important to force your sense of responsibility and duty but not over or on the account of your passion or inspiration especially when it comes to your hobbies, interests and other things which require a relatively higher sense of creativity and energy as your energy gets communicated throughout the things you do and through your interpersonal communication with others, either through your work or through your daily communication activities with people.

It’s a matter of fact to never give a chance to someone to shake your self-confidence as long as you know yourself pretty well and know that you did all you could.

We cannot keep giving energy, efforts, etc endlessly, at some point your energy will give out and it’s your absolute right to take a rest, if the other party is not appreciating this human fact so they should not be considered as human being no more, cause when the tables turn they will be in need to be felt this way you required to be but they never did.

However, it’s valid to feel mixed up or to have mixed emotions of insecurity, lack of self-confidence, guilt, or whatever, whenever you are under shock, cause this condition allows a big chance of multiple mental dysfunctions to take effect, as it’s already a human nature and no one should ever blame you for going through this especially when this is due to an emotional break up or any romantic relationship which leads to having most of our emotions to be shaken or scattered sometimes.

However, it’s still highly important and crucial for yourself to never blame yourself for anything good you’ve done with the other partner or with anyone in general, cause if they did not appreciate good things you did, including efforts, energy, time, or whatever, it’s still their fault, not yours.

Appreciation is the magical key for sustainability or retention, either in a relational context or a professional setting like a workplace or other business, or even in voluntary communities.

It’s a mutual responsibility for all parties to retain each other, especially when there’s an urge that requires extra efforts for doing so; otherwise, nothing was meant to be from the very beginning.

It’s such a terrible feeling when someone’s space used to pamper your entire life and out of a sudden in a very weak moment of your life you realize it doesn’t even represent 10% of it for now, this twist has a sour taste that may intoxicate the best moments of your life.

The feeling of letting go will break your bones for a while in this very moment like never before while your guts are still craving a comeback for those days, your mind and your heart are collapsing between two questions with no answer not knowing which road you are supposed to take, should I let go or still keep it in your grip?

It’s cruel and chaotic and you are all caught in between where a punch of feelings is still involved in between, it’s not easy for you to survive such a feeling especially when you are all down the street by yourself with no one to wipe your tears, embrace your vulnerability with a warm hug, listen to your words even if they seem unlogical or trivial without any judgemental hints.

Even when the rage starts to dissolve in your daily routine life you will still feel nostalgic about those moments when you used to feel fully embraced and sheltered as some moments will remain unforgettable no matter what happens, it doesn’t matter if they are no longer around you but whenever you remember those moments you will feel settled, warm and blessed.

Duality is a rootless reflection of any society, when you lean on a certain reference regardless of its type either religious, social, or even merely moral you need to stick to it without any biased discrimination in relation to certain factors otherwise you may simply disregard the entire reference, there’s no way to partially consider some part and neglect another only to justify your actions and make it appealing to others or yourself.

Reference customization is a fake application of either law or even moral judgment which you are not entitled to, as it’s absolutely unfair to use the same criteria to victimize yourself and accuse others regarding the same mistake you are actually committing especially when no one is being contextually harmed by any means.

When duality is massively applied to every single aspect of our daily lives it turns out to be psychologically toxic even if you are not directly affected but it relatively toxicates your surroundings or the vibes right around you where you get negatively triggered and end up feeling uncomfortable.

You wouldn’t ever feel emotionally stable among all of these negative interruptions, sooner or later the damage will hit your inner deepest points so don’t show off your unoffended space meanwhile as nothing lasts forever and at this particular point when the tables turn you will feel the urge to stop judging others negatively.

The role of securing a free peaceful space for others has the same relative importance in contributing to safely maintaining yours as well, to a certain level as this is a mutual right for everyone and you cannot use this privilege to monopolize it for yourself or for your specific tailored needs.

Society has a very powerful potential to transform our characters either via direct or indirect interactions through which you may become a better version of yourself or instead turn you into a worse version even way beyond your expectations or imagination, as I witnessed major transformational changes across multiple aspects in well-known influencers, Youtubers, and even media personalities in considerably short time intervals.

Some of those figures may start expressing their own controversial thoughts, beliefs, and even normal patterns of own personal lifestyles which may oppose some social or community standards and norms about certain dimensions but without any deliberate intention to do so, they simply try to share a relatively genuine material about their true identity, spirit and inner feelings on their social media channels or platforms to express themselves in a relatively freer personal space so eventually I can tell that they simply behave out of spontaneity about how they’d like to see themselves without sharp judgments and reeking hatred that hunt them wherever they go.

After a violent collision between both innocently genuine attempts to merely become how they really are and society’s suppressive and aggressive response towards their initial existence in the first place which results in social stigma that may include bullying in its various types which may initially progress from verbal to severe physical and sexual assaults and other minor acts on the large bullying spectrum.

The influence of the extremely violent bullying acts on some of those figures is massively capable of destroying most of the good traits they might already have, and the simplest example is being genuine and honest so instead of securing a free space for others where they only try to be themselves without any potential harms to any other party, they sadly toxicate it.

Most notably, people never focus on what turned those people to behave in such stubbornly hostile ways against society neglecting and opposing most of the local community and social standards and reactions, and more often extremely rebellious attitude towards the entire society which sometimes arouses me to try questioning the root cause behind these tremendously negative changes.

I no longer have a solid belief in normality in human life or humanitarian concepts, we may get way better or worse in various aspects in regards to how we look, behave, or even merely think, and desperately we may mirror ourselves wrong towards people and sometimes even towards ourselves which is way worse.

In other words, reflections of past experiences can significantly distort too many things we used to love and cherish about ourselves, it’s never easy to hurt someone even if you feel so as I am pretty sure one day before it wasn’t.

It’s unfair to merely prejudge someone from a shallow perspective on which you never made an effort to realize where it initially came from, to be honest, it’s not easy to do so because as we humans are all imperfect so we cannot make ourselves perfect as a result, but we can help each other out in many considerable ways so it’s as simple as that we always need each other to survive and move on and this particular need will never come to an end.

Most notably we may perfectly play the ideal life coach persona dealing with others’ issues, traumas, and mild experiences but when the tables turn to deal with ours we might seek the same kind of advice we may have already given to others earlier not because we’re morons or schizophrenic it simply sounds like but because we are too distracted to understand or even notice.

Here and now I proudly suspect the very fact that you can simply prejudge someone shaming them as abnormal, just remember when you witness a brutal or cruel situation or action taken by someone else right around you try to visualize it as a reflection of a much more brutal trauma or experience this person has already gone through.

It’s ironic how pain can be unexpectedly inspirational and take you way too far from fragility to emotional independence.

I won’t lie claiming that we were all born strong and resilient as strength won’t ever exist without your weakest moments, those are only in charge of your real strength potentials, pain never kills but recreates or reshapes the way you should sound or be.

I recall every single moment when I felt too broken and weak to even come out seeking help and how those moments have massively contributed to not only being strong but to feeling happier than before.

I strongly believe that pain creates a more authentic feeling of well-deserved happiness, relating this to factual testimonials from my own experience, after a whole year of tough and uphill battles that nearly consumed all my energy, patience, and time I turned out to be too attentive, appreciative to simple blessings for people to feel or even notice that may simply include an appetite for a cup of tea and a tiny piece of cheesecake or pancake on a scenery side.

I am more than happy to say that the huge pain I suffered has created an incomparable portion of joy which I am currently earning my stripes for.

People always tend to see the surface of everything, not the inner core, sometimes they don’t pay attention to it, ignore it, and other times they rather prefer to judge the outside look than the inside which results in misplacement.

Nowadays beauty is only defined in regards to how your body shapes which makes the beauty concept look too shallow for me to respect or even recognize.

Taking a deeper dive into the concept made me easily understand that outer beauty fades over time while inner beauty is eternal and never gives out.

It’s naive and pitiful how people get easily attracted to each other only by judging their physical body insights and, to be honest from my point of view I can tell this kind of people never knew what beauty feels like and never will.

Taking notice and appreciating moral beauty aspects such as honesty for example gives us an everlasting sensation of attachment that’s too substantial for days to wear out even when the surface looks completely dusty you can still see the inner glow and dazzle.

Dare to think and challenge your mental abilities and try to take them to further horizons you create yourself and not blindly follow others’ steps without a single meaning or belief just to remain appealing or acceptable among people or society.

Your identity never takes genuine shape unless your shaken beliefs are either stable or rebuilt, only your efforts can give it a thoughtful meaning and if you are rootless and unsteady you will end up getting lost inside yourself.

Defend your beliefs and it’s fine to be open to discussions and change them if needed, as our thoughts and beliefs are always subject to change even divine or spiritual ones, sometimes it’s necessarily urgent to enforce a corrective change to something you no longer have a belief in to save yourself from being fake or to regain personal convenience and confidence about it.

If you keep doing something just to please others or to gain social appeal without a core reason or real value behind it you better off stopping it as it will always feel meaningless plus your energy, time, and efforts are worth saving.

Sticking to society and community norms only to avoid criticism and to remain socially appealing and acceptable is a major failure I don’t seem to bear and from my perspective losing myself towards another win regardless of its type one way or another is considered as the biggest loss which nothing can counterbalance for me.

Trust your feelings and always try to back them up with your uniquely branded ideology to be ready for a discussion and centrally solid to defend them whenever it’s required.

It’s one of the worst feelings ever to start loving someone or something after they’re gone already, you may even feel guilty only for not loving them which is no shame at all.

So of course it’s much more terrible to even try imagining the feeling when you miss your loved ones after they are gone and gone means dead in this context.

It’s a human imperfection that most of the time we don’t appreciate our blessings unless they are gone or unless we feel the risk of losing them and when nostalgia hits us afterward it hurts like never before, as regret will be double, it will be the initial fault of underestimation then the fact of losing it.

Therefore, it’s quite important to make sure to give the right value and appreciation for everything you have, especially your loved ones, and respect their existence cause on different horizons of the universe someone might be helplessly begging god to have the same things you don’t even appreciate.

Another positive perspective about it, more notably that this feeling of appreciation will give you a more convenient sensation of happiness and content.

It feels like a big mess of nostalgia is shaking me to the bones, a quite blissful feeling used to pamper me with comfort and ease, being surrounded by a bunch of beautiful souls and a warm embrace.

A flashback to those days is leaving me with pain as I am currently missing all of these things I used to feel ONLY among them and they are not getting replaced by any means.

I know God knows best and for sure is holding great things for me yet to be witnessed but I feel like a child who’s attached to his little broken toy and keeps crying and bowing out for it to get it back, I am not crying literally but my heart is, indeed.

As a grown-ass adult, I know of course that experiences and people are only meant to be phases in our lives nothing or no one seems to stay still, but this time I am refusing to admit this very fact cause I know this feeling won’t be easily replaced.

What hurts the most is that I’ve been dreaming about this feeling back in my childhood but way more primitive and I kept saving this perfect picture of it until it finally came into reality a couple of years ago then went gone.

Scalability of pain is a major concern to take care of, as simple as this you may experience a traumatic situation that results in an overwhelming pain that consumes too much of your time and effort to get over it or overcome it.

Most importantly not to give a chance to other distracting sources of anxiety to overwhelm you way further, as instead of focusing your attention on an issue to resolve or pain to overcome, you’ll end up having dispersed attention across your mind which will eventually leave you distracted in an endless chaos of overthinking.

So it’s your role to precisely determine those points of distraction and address ’em in the right way or at least try not to mix things up to avoid the complexity of your mental efforts.

The more you downsize your mental efforts, the more energy you save toward a better and more efficient thinking mechanism.

Freedom is not always physical, mental freedom is even much more important because if you are imprisoned inside your mind, no place on the entire planet will set you free.

I used to feel that way for a long time no matter how comfy or wide open the place was I always felt like I didn’t belong or I was uncomfortable, most importantly the vibes were quite great most of these times, so it never related to what’s beside me it’s always been what’s inside of me.

This journey to discover that the main issue was me already took forever but I am fine with that as long as I have results showcasing the progress I attained then I am pretty much satisfied.

The resistance I used to feel about proving to people I was right was a real pressure I never knew its effect unless I let go, I used to be defensive as much as I could in mainly most of my discussions which eventually led to nothing as we people complement each other and no matter how strong we may seem, we always long for support and assurance.

It’s quite critical to never show your vulnerability to everyone, some may perceive or consider it as a weakness point while it’s not.

No matter how long you keep fighting and surviving whatever you are passing through, sooner or later you will be looking for a chance to take a break or rest, and no shame in this but some people might consider it as a failure point or a sell-out.

It’s important to respect yourself and the discretion principle is one of the most important aspects of self-esteem, The disclosure of things about yourself should be managed properly in order not to feel ashamed or underestimated by anyone.

From a personal insight and from my own experience I used to abuse myself by not adhering to this principle which caused an overwhelming portion of pain that could’ve been avoided.

People do not respect this point of view placing a heavy burden on you to always hide any negative feelings you may have and to fake strength and always show others you are 24/7 strong, otherwise, you’ll misjudged in a certain way or another.

It’s unsafe to get emotionally attached to everyone or too many people for whatever reason cause this person might disappear or change and you might lose them either intentionally or accidentally.

Just prepare yourself that anyone might go and never come back and don’t blindly trust or believe in their existence and take it as a proven fact cause when they’re gone you will be fully broken but if you set your expectations that their existence is not a fact when they are gone it will be much easier for you to cope up with this reality and adapt accordingly.

It’s quite hard to set limitations for everyone because at certain points you will desperately be looking for help even just for listening and it will be way harder for you to seek it from a stranger or someone you don’t know well enough to engage them in such a situation.