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Krailert's end on the show is very easy to see as entirely bleak and hopeless, but the key thing, something that connects all of the characters on Shine, is that he survives with, and in art.
He starts composing again and playing the piano in his home, instead of just at the Grand Paradiso or at the library. He is at the lowest he can possibly be, but he will live, and his pain and his hope are immortalised in the one thing that has always been there for him, which is music. He is forced to hide who he is and what he wants in life, but he has experienced love, and joy, and despite that being torn away from him it will not be forgotten, because he channels it into his art.
Just like Trin composing his feelings of melancholy reminiscence into music, Naran taking adoring photographs of the man he loves, Tanwa finally processing his grief and fear in finishing his mother's novel, Tanwa and Trin expressing their love together in painting and even Dhevi, directing her feelings of frustration and desire for control into her sewing and plant cultivation, Krailert uses his art to feel and express when the world around him makes it almost impossible to do in any other avenue.
Is Krailert's fate horrifying and deeply upsetting? Yes. But is it completely and utterly hopeless? No. Because his humanity and what makes him who he is can be beaten and blugeoned into conformity, but it can never be entirely extinguished as long as he is alive. And his music is proof of that.
This is a beautiful take, and, I think, very, very true.
I'd like to add that the last time we see Krailert, playing at his piano in the basement, the camera takes care to linger on his ringless hands. He has not only removed his wedding band, which symbolizes his marriage to Dhevi and the normative role in a suppressive system that he himself also was trying to force himself into at the start of the series. He also took off the big ruby (?) ring Dhevi's father gave him, which symbolizes the oppressive governmental system Krailert helped prop up, mainly out of fear, at the same time.
My point being, Krailert's story might be bitterly sad, but I think it is also deeply hopeful. Because as much as it might seem like it, the character of Krailert does not end the series where he started it, he does not stagnate. Outside of himself, he is trapped by circumstances he has no power over, but inside himself, he goes through change, he makes choices, he finds liberation in regards to both the wider environment he is part of, and his own private truth.
Ideologically, he is no longer bound to the oppressive military system he supported because his fear did not let him see any other way. He faced his demons, he was brave in the face of fear, he stood up for what he believed in when he publicy uplifted the truth even in the face of huge personal consequence. Inrevertably he knows now about himself, he is no coward. At his piano, he takes off the ring Dhevi's father gave him.
He also upheld his own truth. Against huge obstacles, convention and stigma, he made a real play for the life he truly wanted to live with the person he wanted to live it with. He was foiled - but he did it. No one can take that from him. At his piano, he takes off his wedding ring.
Krailert liberated himself within an oppressive system, out loud and indelibly, in front of the press and in front of his wife. He knows who he is. He knows what he chose, not matter what others tell him he did. Talk about real power. He left fear and shame behind. That kind of liberation is something that those who keep on clinging to the roles such opressive systems foist on them, even if they have to drag others down with them, even to their own detriment (yes, this is Dhevi), may never know.
And to get back to ops original beautiful post, it is no coincident that it is at the piano he takes off the rings. They symbolize the false roles he is forced to play. But when he is with and in his art, he is just himself. In his music, he keeps on choosing his own truths, again and again.
On Dhevi, choices, and wishing her father was still around to take care of those dissenting journalists.
Much has been said about Dhevi, Krailert, and the choices made in episode 8. Iām sure the directors are dancing a giddy dance ā what a way to polarize. Then again, the wounds different oppressed groups cause each other while trying to survive beneath their oppressors will always be the sorest of spots, and will always set people off. Because there is something about the whole Dhevi character that I see mentioned almost nowhere, but that niggled at me from early on in the series, I come to you with this essay that my brain just kind of compulsively vomited up after scrolling through some of the discourse on tumblr, twitter etc. Iāve never posted anything like this before, I donāt even know how to make it so that interested people see it ā is it tags? No idea. But letās go for it.
As for my own positionality, as far as it matters in this context ā I am a white, queer woman living in the West. Iāve never been to Thailand. In what follows Iāve done my utmost best to stay aware of how this inevitably filters what I perceive, feel, and think of Shine the series and the surrounding discourse. If Iāve failed anywhere, or if the blind spots are too glaring, please donāt hesitate to let me know. I am always open to being corrected, to debate, and to change my mind.
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Now, I think the Dhevi plot twist in episode 8 was not really the revealing watershed moment of her character arc. While her actions surprised me like everyone else, I decided quickly I didnāt find them particularly shocking. I believe the narrative reveals the most important thing we need to know about Dhevi in order to understand her choices, much earlier in the series. In episode 3, she sits at the breakfast table reading an article written by Naran in the Siam Daily Mail critical of Krailert and the power plant project. She says āThat Siam Daily Mail⦠If my father were still aliveā¦ā. Knowing what we know, and she knows, about her father, the implication is clear. If her father was still alive, voices of dissent would be dealt with swiftly, effectively, and, as I'm sure she must understand, violently - an attitude she apparently favors over Krailertās lenience, which she looks less than impressed by. To me this moment, short, subtle and random for a character whose storyline seemingly hasnāt until this moment and wonāt until almost the very end touch on politics, is important to pay attention to. It doesn't appear in the storyline for no reason. It sets the lens through which to interpret her further decisions and actions, including those regarding Krailert in episode 8. It had me slightly confused as to why, in the following weeks, people kept on ārootingā for her.
Dhevi is depicted almost solely running an impeccable upper-class household, doggedly taking care of the men in her life no matter how much they neglect her, suffering a cold marital bed and wishing for children probably both as a cure for her loneliness and in pursuit of that perfect family life she seems to crave despite her family circumstances not at all being conducive to it. Dhevi is also mourning the days her father would get rid of political dissidents quickly and without scruple. That makes her a hardliner. Somewhere between her ideas of the kind of womanhood she wants to live and her ideas about violent political censorship, Dhevi represents the corrupt political system all other characterās narratives so overtly revolve around, and the way even people oppressed in that system will cling to it and help uphold it as long as they can reap some benefit off of it.
Dhevi is limited by the social, political and legal restrictions placed on her gender, yet from within these limitations she not only exists in and acts from a place of extreme privilege and power, but seemingly does so comfortably and uncritically. That is class-based entitlement. The gender-based discrimination she experiences certainly informs how she wields, or feels she has to wield, the privilege at her disposal. But that very same privilege makes her at best blind or at worst unempathetic to the harms she causes to others tied up in the same oppressive systems, when she helps uphold those systems in an attempt to create some breathing space for herself in them. Shine is a story of several characters being constantly faced with choices of how to position themselves in a system of oppression that affects them all in different ways. Her statement about her father implies very heavily that Dhevi has chosen the side of the oppressor and the privilege and stunted security that this ensures her, instead of solidarity with her fellow oppressed. The price, for herself and for those associated with her, is a bitter one.
Dhevi chooses violence within the limits placed on her because of her gender. This violence ricochets, harms others, and ultimately props up the systems of oppression she herself is trapped in. Her dreams of life never go beyond what she was probably told since girlhood her dreams should be, and she now lives them out only imperfectly and as a facade. The systems she clings to blind her to the alternatives.Ā
Now, this might be a very 21st century interpretation of her character, but I would argue that that does not make for an illegitimate interpretation. Contemporary worldviews are after all often a result of critical reflection on worldviews gone by. And within the Shine series itself there is a character that seems fallen out of time, a woman time traveler choosing and succeeding to rise above the system thatās oppressing her by making what I imagine must have been hard choices that got her stigmatized plenty. This is Moira, who by episode 8 becomes a beautiful foil for the character of Dhevi, and the choices women are faced with when they try to survive in systems poled against them.
The long scene of Moira recounting her relationships with men to Tanwa, and how she payed them in order to accumulate independence from those same men, confused me at first ā what was the point of this detailed backstory when it, as for the longest time Moiraās character herself, barely figured into the rest of the whole story? By episode 8, watching Dhevi burn down Krailertās chance at escaping his cage while locking herself ever tighter into her own, I understood its purpose. Moira, from the same generation if not the same social background as Dhevi (if anything, we can assume that Dheviās upper-class background would have given her more advantages in forging her own path than Moira), makes choices that end up with her being able to truly rely on herself. Not on the intrinsically patriarchal structures around her.
Moiraās power, and freedom, is real. It leads to a place of connection, of solidarity with others. I imagine, in finding her greatest ally in herself, she also long ago came to understand the untouchable integrity inherent in everyone else. She tries to tell Dhevi this. āThere are some things we cannot controlā. But Dhevi cannot understand, because Dhevi is not free herself, and as long as she is not willing to give up on the privilege she is accustomed to, she never will be.Ā The last time we see her, she sits alone in a single spot of light in an otherwise dark room, surrounded by walls of her gilded cage just the same as her husband, who will never return her love. She has effectively isolated herself.
Now, if I sound very passionate about all of this, its because I think this series and these characters have a lot to tell us about the current world weāre living in. Again, my positionality in judging these things is limited. I do believe though that the way Dhevi chooses to wield her inherently stunted agency is very reflective of the power systems that inform what in this day and age we call white feminism, virulent plague that it is. All over the world, we will find white women who believe they are the most oppressed people in the world. Either willfully blind to or simply feeling absolutely entitled to their massive privilege within the systems of power that be, they use that privilege to step on those more oppressed and vulnerable than them in order to uplift themselves within a hierarchy that ultimately keeps them down. And as white supremacy and white feminism are systems of power inherently tied to classism, no one is safe from being taken over by this mindset. Dhevi is eaten by this plague. As I said, if you think youāre better positioned than me to discuss this and think Iām getting it wrong, please hit me up.
So, especially in the context of the world we find ourselves in today, seeing so many voices online framing Dheviās choices as some feminist power move drives me wild. It is not. It.Is.Not.
While a more understandable conclusion, I respectfully also donāt agree with those saying Dhevi made the only choice she could. She had plenty of choices ā most of which would have meant letting go of much of her own dreams, and the privileges and entitlements enclosed in them. Krailert did this in the very same episode when he basically burned his career down in order to uplift the truth. But Dhevi is not prepared to let go of her very narrow acceptable vision of life: as a upper-class housewife and mother with a man she for some reason, after years of neglect and clear signs that her feelings are not being returned, still thinks of as the man of her dreams. Thai voices have popped up on tumblr pointing out that divorce was not as impossible at that time in Thailand as others were quick to claim. Even if they were not, alternative lifestyles such as open marriages and the like have always, always, always existed wherever in time. This narrative that the middle ages kinda ended mid-20th century and then suddenly, boom, modern believes and attitudes, has always bothered me a bit. Transition has always been ongoing and continuous. Trailblazers have always existed. With money, power, and connections, Dhevi was better positioned than most to reach for these alternatives. She didnāt take the only choice she could. She took the choice that served only herself, enforcing a hollow version of her dreams and wrecking other lives in the process, including that of the person she claims to love.
Did she save Krailert and Naranās lives in the moment? Undoubtedly. Krailert was being a love-drunk idiot probably flying high on the first real act of self-liberation heās taken in his life, and Naran spent the entire series being naive about the danger he was putting himself in through his affair. But does that mean Dheviās only choice was to demand Krailert stay with her due to his choice he made a decade ago and was clearly not prepared to make again, have a baby with her that he has clearly shown he did not want, and send the person he just told her he loved into exile?* Dhevi didnāt have āno choiceā to do these things.
The alternatives would have had a massive impact on her life and her privileges, sure. But in a series whichās overall narrative hinges on different peopleās readiness to knowingly risk and sacrifice so much, their safety, their home-country, their very lifes, for the wellbeing of others and the greater good overall, I think its fair to hold that mirror up to Dhevi also. And Dhevi chooses only to sacrifice others.** Dhevi, entrapped as she is, instead of putting herself on the line, instead of making space for others and possibly coming to find a degree of real liberation in that, ultimately chooses to enforce what she believes serves herself the most by removing any obstacles at the root ā Krailertās lover, Krailertās shot at liberation, Krailertās free will. Just like her father would have done with those pesky journalists.
Phew. This was a long one. And it doesnāt even touch on wherever she knew about Win before or after the marriage, what role she played in his death etc. etc. I think none of this is important to understanding her motivations as is her willingness to uphold oppressive censorship. That tells us all we need to know. After finishing episode 8, my brain immediately went down a hyper-fixative tunnel of how to possibly solve things for Krailert and Naran. Then it got sharply derailed once I realized that Krailertās liberation is entirely entangeld with Dheviās emancipation. And this is what this all comes down to: Dhevi, love, I want to see you truly happy and in real power. So, please. Free yourself.
No woman in this world will find true freedom and power by meting out violence to those oppressed alongside or beneath her. Even if, and often especially when, it feels like she has no choice.
*Naranās displacement from his beloved country he spent his entire arc risking his neck for being a different heart wrenching point I donāt really see anyone bringing up.)
**The notable exception being when sheās ready to go down with Krailert even when he sets himself up for downfall. Again, why, Dhevi? He doesnāt even seem to particularly like you. Oh yes, I remember: its entitlement. You decided his place in your story a long time ago. This is probably reinforced by the fact that he comes from a background of low means, while youāre born rich and chose to lift him to your level when you āchoseā him.
***How Dheviās understanding of Krailertās homosexuality, in the context of the time and the place, influences the whole situation, is surely something else to be touched on. I do not have all the information and insight I think I would need to write on this, also this is super long already. Suffice to say, if a person doesnāt want you, they donāt want you. You respect that regardless of their sexuality.