In My Own Mind

So much has happened. Im a full time zookeeper now! Have been for about a year and a half. I own a conure, my dream pet! Ive been happily married for a few years. Made friends at my job. Even have a best friend. And yet this year. This June specifically. It was the loneliest I had felt in a long time. It really messed with my head and how I perceived friendships. I wanted nothing more in the world than to share all this with my best friend from high school, but I couldn’t. Shes not here. Shes not alive. I miss her everyday but it hit me hard this year more than others because I’m the proudest of my life I have ever been and I could not share it with her. I still try to talk to her sometimes, but it doesn’t feel the same.