Whatchu Know About Me

Last night was a bit of a milestone. I attended my first ever yoga class with some of the amazing and inspiring women from one of the teams I am lucky to be a part of. I am an introverted extrovert. So doing things like this has always terrified me, even tho I know I'll love it! The anxiety won the battle and kept me at home so many times, but thanks to personal development and these and many other amazing women I find myself feeling more confident every day. They are truly inspirational and I am so grateful to be making friends with such amazing women. #grateful #happy #confident #lovemygirls💕 #teamFITforward #hotyoga (at Pressed Hot Yoga Blain) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoUm0h3lROI/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=3wm392jjvfm

“Comparison is the thief of joy.” Never compare yourself to others. Your story is yours. Their story is theirs. And guess what!? You are both amazing!!! So believe in yourself! Because you are capable of anything you set your mind to! And remember to never make assumptions! Just because someone appears to have the perfect life does not mean they don't also have struggles too. Being supportive and kind will bring you much more joy. Quit criticizing yourself and others. Be auspicious, forward thinking, and success will come naturally! I didn't think I could ever get out of the rut I fell into, but here I am! Only 4 ½ months later 🤯 And if you want to change things you have to be willing to make changes! But you do not have to do it alone. My next challenge group starts on Monday and if you have been looking for a way to focus more on you again than what are you waiting for!?! My next group starts on Monday! Drop your favorite emoji or DM me for details. 🖖🏼 https://www.instagram.com/p/BoSAGzZFAGx/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=iqcx676s1ovb

Happiness. That is the number one change I've experienced in the past 4 months. After around 10 years of spending almost every single day of my life anxious, exhausted, hurting, lonely and just plain SAD. Then one day finally realizing that if I wanted to change I had to make changes. Next I made changes and stuck to them! Some days are easier than others, but even on my grumpiest days I'm not sad like I once wss. If anything my happiness motivates me to push through the obstacles even harder because I know how good I will feel after. Whether it's by working out, eating right, personal development, going out with friends or helping others. Doing these things can change everything for you. So do them! So many of us spend far too much time being weighed down by all the things that make us sad. We let these things take over our lives. We give them all the power instead of the good. Why is that!?! It almost seems ridiculous that we don't just choose to focus on the good. Give happiness the power! Sadness will always exist too, but it doesn't have to be your default mode. It is possible to CHOOSE LOVE & HAPPINESS. (at Minneapolis, Minnesota) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoMHBYilvaL/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=17o5etvnv2l47

#3things #threelittlethings #threegenerations #msfgrandstand #jasonmraz #goodvibes #partyon #mrazfamilyfarms #mnstatefair (at State Fairgrounds Grandstand) https://www.instagram.com/p/BnC2qIUlTyB/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=yrmtewca14h0

I choose to be happy. I choose to love. This has been my daily mantra. So simple yet so profound. #TransformationTuesday by social media standards can only be conveyed via photos and words that may or may not truly express exactly what it means to transform. So rather than rant about what transformation means to me, I want you to think about what it means to you! Is change something you fear or embrace? Are you choosing happiness? Are you choosing love? I am. "Things are looking up I know beyond the dark the sun is rising Things are looking up And I know above the clouds the sun is shining Things are looking up Love is still the answer I'm relying on" (at Plymouth, Minnesota)

I really need to work on the upkeep of this thing. I go months or sometimes years without it, and I could probably benefit from putting my thoughts into words more frequently. Hmmm... we'll see.

New workout routine that I kidnapped from Traci.

I started to lower the music I was listening to... and thought of going to bed. FUCK THAT. The only reason I was even going to do so was to go and slightly wake up my boyfriend and "amend" things... that he broke in the first place by being just plane drunk and rude to me, and  honestly I am sick of being the one to constantly fixing the drunken rudeness he inflicts on our nightly hangouts. Now this may sound to some men like a woman just bitching, and to those of you thinking that.... go ahead and think it. I am done trying to prove myself to him or you that something someone else does while they are incapable of perceiving how they themselves are behaving that they are acting a way they are unable to even accept. And even more so I am tired of trying to prove to anyone other than myself that any word I say out loud is anything but the truth. Lies are something my life has progressed so far past that I don't think anyone who continues to lie in their own lives will understand.

I gotta remember these.

Say whatchu wanna say and let the words fall out.

I'll be back at 2:30 AM he says..... It is now 4:09 AM..... tic toc..... tic..... toc....

The cliche Shawn passed out on the couch again photo.

Holy moly, forget about a blog for a year, come back, read your last entry, and be completely amazed. Literally my life is everything I stated it would never be last year, and I had completely stopped looking for a life like the one I have. I have an amazing man in my life that just sort of fell out of nowhere into my life again after not having seen him since we were sophomores in high school. I never would have thought that he and I would be such a great duo. I have no expectations however because this is the first person I've ever really truly been in a realationship with. To think, if he hadn't gotten back in touch with me at the right time we may never have been where we are now. The world really is a bunch of random chaos that we can never know what to expect will happen.

On another note; I think I want to start singing again more often. I miss the days when I had confidence in my voice. And being able to use singing as an emotional escape.