miss you so much it hurts

genuinely why are my headmates so bad at keeping relationships. what do you mean you just ghosted everyone we know. im stressin bruh. 😮‍💨

everyone take a vote, did my headmates ruin our relationship by not communicating like normal people and instead being consumed by our disorders. again.

boom shakalaka

anyways i hate having such a big timezone difference with sage im so miserablw constantly i miss them all the time im actuallt going to end everything if i cant have a decently long conversation with them sobs sobs sobs sobs sobs sobs sobs osb sobs

me vs threatening to kill myself over every minor inconvenience HELP

its so odd knowing that my friend trusts me with things that mimi wouldn't let anyone else see wdym IM allowed onto the accounts that mimi drops all of mimis "gross" thoughts into (<- what mimi calls them, theyre just. disordered. i dont think it makes the thoughts gross.)

??MY MAMA WONT LET ME TAKE MY MEDICINE UNTIL SHES READY TO TAKE ME TO SCHOOL?? you relapse One time.... smh..

i like the name frankie, btw. i went by sigma before.

frew up and i still have to go to school .

(ex) fp text me.. frown.. i dont get any joy from talking to her anymore and i think its partially just because she hasnt been around. im trying to keep the conversation going in hopes that it comes back but i feel really empty without it and i hate how empty everything feels now

this would be easier if i had no connections because i Need to talk to them but i crash and then i feelbad and evil and its horrible . This is why everyone leaves me because i cant put in effort im always too caught up in my own self pity. ifeel sicj i dont want any of them to leave me

i was so healthy i was Okay. for once. and now im crashing back into a really bad place and i dont know why and i hate it its so frustrating. and i dont. want to be that friend whos constantly negative and upset because it sucks and i Dontwant to do that to sage or ruru or mimi or kylo. i love them all so much i feel sick thinking about Ever talking about this outside of ventposting

i dont know whats wrong w me actually ive been so tired and easy to upset lately . i feel like im dying whenever im awake i just want to sleep constantly its so unhealthy nd idk what to do about it because i keep just passing out without any warning to myself or others